absolute bullshit and incorrect thinking and underdeveloped attitude

well if you ever need a shoulder to vent to, hit me up, i feel you are one like me, and you need a guard dog in your corner

Ask your doctor for antidepressants. They slow the mind down and give you a rest from fighting with yourself.
They allow you to sleep which is sorely needed.
Venting online exposes you to negative people who want to bring you down. As the previous poster shows.
Still come here to vent, just block all the negative commenters.
When I was really down I would write it down. Not think about what to write, just pick up a pen and write what ever comes out.
Do not read what you write because that will put it back in your mind.