Is it so wrong, to wish?

I hate me. I wish I weren't me. I wish I were perfect and could live up to everyone's expectations. I wish I liked myself and that every time someone told me to "Love yourself" I did. I don't want to live the way I do. I wish I were happy and that people actually wanted to stay around me long enough and that no one had to be fake when they're around me. It's sounds selfish for me to stay that I want people to be around me forever and listened to me all the time, but that's what I want. I want people to actually be interested in what I have to say. I wish everyone treated me just how they treat "her". She is pretty and everyone wants her and wants to be her. I want to be her since everyone is nice to her and treats her like she's important. I wish everyone talked to me like they do to "him". They talk to him as though he is precious and everyone respects him. He is taken seriously and is listened to each time a word falls from his mouth. I just, want attention and I guess that's the horrible thing about me. I seek attention and affection and only for myself. How disgusting. All of this and more. Then again, all I want is to be normal and human.