im struggling with this life.. i ahte it

i hate this life..all i see is fake.. everything is fake.. why they treat me diiferent..? am i ugly? am i fat..? should i changed my self so that they will love me again? why i do feel like they dont cared abt me.. do they hate ? do they dont care abt me?? do they dont love me? i wonder what they think abt me.. prob ugly and fat.. i ahte my classmate.. they all are fakes... idk who trust again... i wish i met someone better than them... i ahte them.. no matters what.. i hate my friends.. they all betray me.. i only have one last best friend.. idk if she will betray me or not.. but i love her no matters what.. <3 well i wondering how is my future will be.. am i gonna die? or success? thats to nonsence...