sad sad sad angry dont know what to do

I really hate my life, it is like nobody in my family understands me or even care about me sometimes. Even my own mother does not believe that i can make it in life. She tells me repeatedly to just drop school and work as a cleaner ??? I didn't even asked to be born so why do i have to live this shitty life. My mother said i was a mistake (not to mention the huge 10 years gap between me and my siblings). I wish she would've just aborted me . I am trying my best already. just give me a break. I wish i wasn't born. i wish i didn't have to live this shitty life. i wish i could be happier.