What do I do?
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I can’t do this anymore. I always put on a smile to make others feel happy, I always do everything in my will so others don’t struggle the way I do. I’m fed up of my friends saying omg like I can’t do this. They don’t have it as hard as me. But yet whenever I cry I feel guilty I don’t deserve to cry i always tell myself to grow up and that I have it better than others but you know I have been self harming since I was nine. I’ve tried to kms multiple times too, but there’s something stopping me and I do not know what. My friends aren’t real either there horrible and keep me around to embarrass me. I want to die, but I just can’t. I’ve been nonbinary for a while now, only 3 people I know, know about it and I’m scared to tell anyone. Especially my mum. She’s always going on about how homosexuals should die. I want to just run away and die. Maybe people would think on what they could have done better or been more nice. I don’t know what to do. Im fed up and tired of this simulation. I can’t do this.
I can’t do this anymore. I always put on a smile to make others feel happy, I always do everything in my will so others don’t struggle the way I do. I’m fed up of my friends saying omg like I can’t do this. They don’t have it as hard as me. But yet whenever I cry I feel guilty I don’t deserve to cry i always tell myself to grow up and that I have it better than others but you know I have been self harming since I was nine. I’ve tried to kms multiple times too, but there’s something stopping me and I do not know what. My friends aren’t real either there horrible and keep me around to embarrass me. I want to die, but I just can’t. I’ve been nonbinary for a while now, only 3 people I know, know about it and I’m scared to tell anyone. Especially my mum. She’s always going on about how homosexuals should die. I want to just run away and die. Maybe people would think on what they could have done better or been more nice. I don’t know what to do. Im fed up and tired of this simulation. I can’t do this.
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