my purpose of life

ive wanted to commit suicide since i was 8-9 and now that ive promised to one of the only people i truly care about that i wouldnt do so, i have no idea exactly what ill do in my future. i always have assumed that i would off myself sooner or later, i dont have aspirations, dreams, hobbies, plans, absolutely nothing. this has affected almost everything in my everyday life and just gave me another reason to give up. life is so unfair and the worst part is i cant do anything about it. whats the point of living if i dont have any purpose. im not looking for pity or sympathy, i need help or else i think ill die.

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Doomflower · 36-40, M

Nihilism is pretty much the truth, no matter how you interpret it.

This post sounds like me. I first thought about "not being alive anymore" when I was in kindergarten and su1c1dal thoughts since about 8-9 as well.

Life is unfair and it is brutal and cruel. Whatever you do, don't have kids and consign them to this misery.

You and I will die with or without help. At this point I'm of the opinion it would be kinda dumb for me to get help.

Gobzz · 22-25

Spirituality has helped me a lot , I’m only encouraging you to look into it , it honestly saved me … of course you do not have to ,but I hope it helps you find clarity and reassurance for you just in case you feel alone atm . The universe is there for you when you are in need of assistance or guidance . It requires a lot , I’m just warning you , spirituality isn’t pretty especially emotionally but it’s healing and self growth . Love and light to you

CrazyMusicLover · 31-35

You sound like you have adhedonia and the only thing that comes to my mind that might possibly help you is therapy with a good therapist. Do you remember when was the last time you enjoyed doing something?

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