I should be working, but my brain is finding every way possible to procrastinate
I took on an agent for a client, and I was receiving copious amounts of work. We're talking 3-4k articles a day with some challenging topics. I was literally getting paid pennies per word, and the agent knew little to no boundaries.
I had 4 other clients at the time and had to reduce my workload from all of them, even discontinuing work from two due to the strain of this agent. I tried to back out slowly, but the guy simply would not respect my boundaries. He kept pushing. I finally severed ties, but now the client I really love working with gave me a longer article that I'm too burnt out to do.
Naturally, I [i]can[/i] do it... My mind, however, is blocking off all possibilities and is pretty much shut down. I keep telling myself to just do it. Shai LaBeouf-style. But nope. Nada. Zilch. It's due tomorrow, so I'm sure I'll get it done. It's just disheartening that I got really good at time management only to burn out from an exploitative agent. I know the business better though, and I will not be taken advantage of in that way again.
I hate the feeling of ignorance when awareness hits. It rattles me. I feel embarrassed and angry at myself for not knowing. At least now I am the alchemist of my own destiny, transmuting awakened knowledge into evolutionary progress.
I had 4 other clients at the time and had to reduce my workload from all of them, even discontinuing work from two due to the strain of this agent. I tried to back out slowly, but the guy simply would not respect my boundaries. He kept pushing. I finally severed ties, but now the client I really love working with gave me a longer article that I'm too burnt out to do.
Naturally, I [i]can[/i] do it... My mind, however, is blocking off all possibilities and is pretty much shut down. I keep telling myself to just do it. Shai LaBeouf-style. But nope. Nada. Zilch. It's due tomorrow, so I'm sure I'll get it done. It's just disheartening that I got really good at time management only to burn out from an exploitative agent. I know the business better though, and I will not be taken advantage of in that way again.
I hate the feeling of ignorance when awareness hits. It rattles me. I feel embarrassed and angry at myself for not knowing. At least now I am the alchemist of my own destiny, transmuting awakened knowledge into evolutionary progress.
31-35, F
