Dear R, I have this big dumb burning crush on you.
I absolutely love and hate this feeling, but meeting you in person was a dream come true. Hearing your voice in person was surreal. Stepping foot in your car as you picked me up from the airport. Nervously making conversation as we headed over to the Airbnb. I couldn't believe we been friends for 5 years.
When you laid on the bed, you had your eyes closed with a shy smile. I brushed my fingers through your hair and gently patted your cheek. Admiring you. And gazing at your lips, I wondered "how do they feel pressed against mine?" And when I kissed you. You smiled and said "you made the first move." I absolutely loved kissing your lips. I could not stop kissing you. I felt something that I never felt before. I felt that you were the right one. I am sorry if it is too much. We been friends for 5 years and I needed to express how much I admire you. You remind me of what summer feels like. I definitely found more of myself when I was with you. I just know that even if we are friends, this feeling of 2-3 years, I know that somewhere in a past life. I've met you before. And maybe we have unfinished business whether we end up being good friends or lovers in the end. I know you are afraid of the distance. And I know that you felt something that day. I felt it in my heart. It does not have to be now, it can be whenever we feel comfortable or if you find someone else... I guess that is fine too. I just hope your new girl realizes how great you are.
I am happy we got a chance to meet and spend time together for a week. It was something amazing and I wish to see you again in October when I come down to Comic Con. But that is a big maybe for your end as I know you got things to do. I just miss your lips so much. I miss cuddling you. I miss you.
When you laid on the bed, you had your eyes closed with a shy smile. I brushed my fingers through your hair and gently patted your cheek. Admiring you. And gazing at your lips, I wondered "how do they feel pressed against mine?" And when I kissed you. You smiled and said "you made the first move." I absolutely loved kissing your lips. I could not stop kissing you. I felt something that I never felt before. I felt that you were the right one. I am sorry if it is too much. We been friends for 5 years and I needed to express how much I admire you. You remind me of what summer feels like. I definitely found more of myself when I was with you. I just know that even if we are friends, this feeling of 2-3 years, I know that somewhere in a past life. I've met you before. And maybe we have unfinished business whether we end up being good friends or lovers in the end. I know you are afraid of the distance. And I know that you felt something that day. I felt it in my heart. It does not have to be now, it can be whenever we feel comfortable or if you find someone else... I guess that is fine too. I just hope your new girl realizes how great you are.
I am happy we got a chance to meet and spend time together for a week. It was something amazing and I wish to see you again in October when I come down to Comic Con. But that is a big maybe for your end as I know you got things to do. I just miss your lips so much. I miss cuddling you. I miss you.
