I Will Face The Future With Courage And Confidence

...and if that means putting on make up only to cry it off, I will do it well and with style.

I am not some victim of pain anymore. I can bear this along with the rest. I'm stronger today than I was 6 months ago, and that's a testament to how much I was suffering because... ow. This hurts.

The things he said he should not have said, not if it was going to end. But he was awesome. The kind of guy you could see yourself marrying. God, this sucks. I'm going to have to date a lot of losers to find another gem, aren't I? Because this was a surprising fluke, finding him. Okay.

Pulling it together now. It's mid afternoon, but, hey--it's never too late to get in the game. Not this one.

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PhoenixPhail · M

If you found it once, you can find it again. Be in the relationship with yourself you would like to share with someone else, and you'll attract that kind of person.

KayraJordyn · F

Thank you, @PhoenixPhail. I won't say the cliché I almost just shared. I appreciate it.

PhoenixPhail · M

@KayraJordyn And what cliché is that? (Really, I don't know the one you're thinking of.)

KayraJordyn · F

That I want him, and not someone else.

DanielChristensen · 46-50, M

Good luck. You'll get through this

Brawny · 46-50, M

I'm sorry for your loss. I hope another good man is out there for you.

Brawny · 46-50, M

@KayraJordyn I'm curious, what were some of his good traits?

KayraJordyn · F

Kindness, compassion; he was best-friend material, he loves Jesus, has amazing friends, is passionate about what he loves, good cook, hilarious, beautiful in more than one or two or three ways, loves family, seemed to appreciate me. He's an adventurous guy and I love adventures. I'm in pain all the time, so that's a lot for someone to take on. My life has been very small but is opening up more all the time. About to finish theses pain management classes and then I'm gonna get my drivers license and goooooo. I'd like to road trip with one of my girls if I can make it work. I also want to get a real life job as soon as my health is stable. Dying to have the new version of the life I felt robbed of in my adolescence. Ready to fly. Too bad he won't get to see that. I'm pretty awesome when the wind is beneath my wings. Maybe that was the problem. My spirit animals are the American bald eagle, followed by the ladybug. His is more grounded. Hahaha. Yeah. -That- was the problem. I just wish I knew what more it was. Because there is a lot I would have worked through. But.

He was willing to let me go.

That was the fastest nonlationship I've never experienced. I wish we hadn't gotten as emotional so fast. I say no regrets, but it's difficult not to regret sharing your heart when its broken.

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