change is very difficult for me. i used to adjust and not even think twice. but not these past few years. it is scary and takes me a while to adjust.

If the fucking weather changes.. i get thrown off.. almost any unknown or deviation sets me into a mood of some kind.. afraid the hammer is sbout to drop in some unseen way.. like the change is always a foreboding sign. But then when everything is super regular and predictable i get so bored and miserable about how boring and uneventful my life is.. conclusion.. my brain is a lot of things.. but not something that wants me to have a good life. Its turned agaisnt me, like someone with an autoimmune disorder that sees threats in healthy organs and tries to destroy them.

Hi dark longings , no one on this earth fully adjusts , everyone has social anxieties.
Thats why so many people talk a lot

I do care about you cause i see's your posts . Id never put you wrong .
Im after having to much experiences with life , and i always will until im 6 feet under