Have I given up?

I don't actually know. Most of the time recently, I've literally not even cared if I were to die. I've been trying so hard to convince myself everything will be okay. I hate where I live, but I don't have the money to move. I've been trying to save, but that's not working. I'm not sure how much longer I can live like this. My mental state is shot.... it's gone. My hope for becoming happy again is nearing the end. It has been at least 5 years since I was last happy. I'm a mess, my life is a mess.... that's all there is to it.

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Casheyane · 31-35, F

Reading that, I don't think you have.

There are times when it feels like we've lost hope. And sometimes I write about it too, like you just did. But the more I ponder, the more I realize, if I really have lost hope then I won't even care to think about it.

Hope is a powerful thing, I still believe, despite everything. Sometimes the turning point is coming right when you feel it's the end.

I hope you'd not give up on you. Change things that you can control.

TodzillaLXIX · M

Hm.... well put. I think you may be right. Thank you for your insight.

Casheyane · 31-35, F

@TodzillaLXIX God bless.

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