“If you want things to be different, you have to start doing things differently.” I’m glad I pushed through my anxiousness to do a thing 😊
It’s funny how our subtle habits, our go-to tendencies can be and how those lil choices become our day, our months, our life. We end up passing on opportunities that could bring the changes we want.
I have to remind myself of that periodically.
Been feeling restless. Sick of Zoom. Sick of being a homebody. Sick of not being a part of the community. Sick of not being a part of my field. Sick tedium. Sick of not having more people in my life that I relate to and maybe become friends.
The other night I finally had an opportunity to meet some people in my grad program — people I might have something in common with who might be in my area,
but everything in my introvert being was ready to wiggle out of it.
[i]My body was achy. The commute would be a b!tch. Have to leave at 3. Not gonna get home until almost 11. The rest of class is going to be over zoom, so would I ever even see any of these people ever again? How would we keep in touch? What if I don’t even hit it off with anybody?[/i]
But you know, nothing changes if nothing changes.
Class was enjoyable. It was refreshing to [i]finally[/i] be on campus. Up until last night everything has been long-distance. Being there among my peers, getting to know everyone, gabbing with the professor finally made all this feel real. Got to meet a handful of people in my area. We all made plans to hang out soon.
I have to remind myself of that periodically.
Been feeling restless. Sick of Zoom. Sick of being a homebody. Sick of not being a part of the community. Sick of not being a part of my field. Sick tedium. Sick of not having more people in my life that I relate to and maybe become friends.
The other night I finally had an opportunity to meet some people in my grad program — people I might have something in common with who might be in my area,
but everything in my introvert being was ready to wiggle out of it.
[i]My body was achy. The commute would be a b!tch. Have to leave at 3. Not gonna get home until almost 11. The rest of class is going to be over zoom, so would I ever even see any of these people ever again? How would we keep in touch? What if I don’t even hit it off with anybody?[/i]
But you know, nothing changes if nothing changes.
Class was enjoyable. It was refreshing to [i]finally[/i] be on campus. Up until last night everything has been long-distance. Being there among my peers, getting to know everyone, gabbing with the professor finally made all this feel real. Got to meet a handful of people in my area. We all made plans to hang out soon.
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