“If you want things to be different, you have to start doing things differently.” I’m glad I pushed through my anxiousness to do a thing 😊
It’s funny how our subtle habits, our go-to tendencies can be and how those lil choices become our day, our months, our life. We end up passing on opportunities that could bring the changes we want.
I have to remind myself of that periodically.
Been feeling restless. Sick of Zoom. Sick of being a homebody. Sick of not being a part of the community. Sick of not being a part of my field. Sick tedium. Sick of not having more people in my life that I relate to and maybe become friends.
The other night I finally had an opportunity to meet some people in my grad program — people I might have something in common with who might be in my area,
but everything in my introvert being was ready to wiggle out of it.
My body was achy. The commute would be a b!tch. Have to leave at 3. Not gonna get home until almost 11. The rest of class is going to be over zoom, so would I ever even see any of these people ever again? How would we keep in touch? What if I don’t even hit it off with anybody?
But you know, nothing changes if nothing changes.
Class was enjoyable. It was refreshing to finally be on campus. Up until last night everything has been long-distance. Being there among my peers, getting to know everyone, gabbing with the professor finally made all this feel real. Got to meet a handful of people in my area. We all made plans to hang out soon.
I have to remind myself of that periodically.
Been feeling restless. Sick of Zoom. Sick of being a homebody. Sick of not being a part of the community. Sick of not being a part of my field. Sick tedium. Sick of not having more people in my life that I relate to and maybe become friends.
The other night I finally had an opportunity to meet some people in my grad program — people I might have something in common with who might be in my area,
but everything in my introvert being was ready to wiggle out of it.
My body was achy. The commute would be a b!tch. Have to leave at 3. Not gonna get home until almost 11. The rest of class is going to be over zoom, so would I ever even see any of these people ever again? How would we keep in touch? What if I don’t even hit it off with anybody?
But you know, nothing changes if nothing changes.
Class was enjoyable. It was refreshing to finally be on campus. Up until last night everything has been long-distance. Being there among my peers, getting to know everyone, gabbing with the professor finally made all this feel real. Got to meet a handful of people in my area. We all made plans to hang out soon.
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