I'm probably just tired, but right now I am feeling overwhelmed and depressed. Maybe I need weed again to make everything better, but that is

going backwards. 4 days sober. I want to drink right now, but don't have the money. I don't want to go back to work on Tuesday. I just want to leave that place and not be employed there. I have to work there though, or I won't be able to pay my bills. The money is more than where I was before, but I was happier there. I'm trying with a vengeance to better myself, but I don't think I am able to or will in the future. I'm trying to be hopeful and trusting that everything will get better, but right now everything just feels like shit. I guess no matter where you are problems persist and don't go away. Always nagging at the bit. Maybe tomorrow will be better, at least I have tomorrow and Monday off. That's the only thought keeping me going for now. I have to do dishes and I know it takes like 5 minutes to do them, but I just don't want to do that. I don't want to go to bed because I just don't want to floss and brush, then take out my contacts. Everything is a hassle right now. If you actually read this thank you letting me vent.