$345.53 that's my paycheck this week because screw me for being sick for nearly 2 days and of course i have zero paid sicktime

I might as well just stop showing up or start hooking. I feel extremely defeated. I've been looking online at jobs for what feels like an eternity today in my downtime and I can't find anything near me that will pay higher than $14-$15 or if I see something higher it's temporary or I'm not qualified.

I just want to swallow a bunch of pills and not wake up somedays.