@Firespirit find me a community I fit in with and I'll finally be at home

@Peppa If your current living arrangement is not to your liking you can always move search around and find a place that screams home

@Firespirit my flat is fine. It's to my liking, once my doors shut I forget about the outside world, but no man is an island

@Peppa yeah okay why are you assuming anything about me? Your going to remain alone with that massive chip on your shoulder that iam not responsible for.
Am I not entitled to feel alone also or are you the only one in the world to suffer? Wake up man

@MushroomFaerie I'm not assuming anything, you have responded to me a few times and the responses you've made have come across blunt. If I could remember which ones specifically I could say but I post a lot of stuff.
I never said you're not allowed to feel alone. But in a situation like this another person may feel the need or desire to comfort you or befriend you. But I know that's not possible between us because we have had interactions in the past which have left me feeling less than welcomed by you. So I was merely pointing out the fact that this can happen sometimes two people can have similar experiences but despite it still just won't get on. In an ideal world we'd all get on. But we don't live in one

@Peppa well I'm sorry if you feel that way about me. Gooday

@NickiHijab this ^^
I felt like this for years then I stopped chasing and started accepting. I feel totally at home now

@SW-User The fourth reich is alive and well undef fuhrer Merkel

@Firespirit Just another four years until we can maybe potentially vote her off! :D

@SW-User A bit to late but one can have hope

@NickiHijab my mum is from Wolverhampton and that's where she lived and I've grown up in London.
I have had very few black friends growing up. And although I know more of them now I just don't really fit in with them. There are lots of things that they do and keep up with that I just don't really understand, partly because I can't afford it, it seems irrelevant to me and it's just not my priority.
I have always been focused on my family that is very broken and disjointed. Not really had much more thought for anything else. I know in wolves there is a massive Asian culture and although they aren't home you are welcomed regardless.

@Peppa So you feel like an outsider even around those similar to you?
To be honest, i'm surrounded around many of the same culture that I don't identify with so I understand where you're coming from. When I was younger I was surrounded around friends of the same race, until I got older I was exposed to different cultures and now have African, Jamaican and Asian friends which is refreshing because being cooped up around people that parrot the same lifestyle can get boring but that's just me. I don't think it's ever too late or impossible to find like minded people. Hopefully you do.

@NickiHijab I totally get this [quote] being cooped up around people that parrot the same lifestyle can get boring but that's just me. [/quote]
I struggle with family and community relationships. If they were more vocal it would help but they aren't so if I needed to work on something I could. So I just don't know. The harsh thing I'd constantly being told you're nice to constantly be rejected. I know that in recent times I've made a conscious decision not to be "nice" and git rid of those I was hanging on to just to have people around but I felt like crap. So in my new state of mind I'm ready to find honesty and sincerity and acceptance of who I am going forward. Not because I need that validation but because I think it's the best way to have and keep friends, when your true to yourself there can be no doubts