Broken hopes and unfulfilled longings, scattered everywhere on the frozen tundra of my paralyzed life.
Standing still in the storm around me, so full of sorrow and dread, blowing across the vast expanses of my constant loneliness.
I could scream and scream, yet I can scream much lowder in my head, and either way, no one can hear me where I am.
Somehow I still have to find the strength, and a way to escape from this hopeless place.
All my forlorn and useless illusions I once called my most valuable dreams, have to be abandoned if there is to be a future for me.
She's aways been the north star in my heart. Though now, where she once was, there is only emptiness and dark.
Locked in place and looking up, I miss who I used to be more than anything, more than anything I've ever missed, but I have to let him go. I have to leave him to finally reach his end.
I don't know who I have to become, how long it will take me, which direction I need to take, or were I'll need to be, to find whoever I might be.
All I have ahead of me is the uncertainty of a nameless, faceless, and shapeless future that awaits me. Though, the only thing I am certain of, is that I'll die if I don't leave, and that I need a blank page if I'm going to finish the rest of my story.
I'm hopeful, I trust. I have given up, I can only trust now. I trust in me, in time, in good intentions, in the wheel that changes always, a bad day and then, a good day ☀️ I think I shouldn't be greedy with goodness but take it when it comes. In thought of course, as in practice I'm very emotional.. Despite loving your texts (truly) , i find you're romanticising sorrow. That might make it even harder to let go. Sending loving vibes your way from Kathmandu ❤️
I'm 64 with 3 kids, two of them 11. My hope is to be around to see them grow up, and to leave them with the means and skills to live successful lives, and survive through hard times.
Yup. There are beautiful things in this world every single day.
Sure, there is pain, sorrow and some empty places too -- and no one can know what the future will bring -- but I do my best not to dwell overmuch on those things (most days). I like to believe that I may still have a lot of living to do and I'm darn well going to make the best of it that I can.
Joshua 1:8 Keep this book of the law always on your lips, meditate on it day and night, so that you will be careful to do everything written in it, Then you will be prosperous and successful.
