What to tell my kids
So my appointment went well today. The doctor was very understanding. He took his time with me despite my outbursts. He talked about what he thought was going on.
He wants me to wear a heart monitor for the next 7 days. I'm to go about my days like normal. He wants to see how my hr is during this time. After the 7 days he's going start me on Propranolol and again I'll be wearing the monitor and see what improvements it makes. He also thinks it will help with my headaches and others issues I'm having. He thinks we've caught this early and with meds i will be fine.
I sat in my car for almost 2 hours. Im relieved to be getting help but im scared too. Now what to tell my kids.
I pick them up and get McDonald's and we stop at crumbl cookies. They have smores cookies this week.
My daughter knows something is up but my son is too excited. After they ate i sit them down and tell them about my appointment. I show them the monitor i have to wear and answer all their questions. Im honest with them but i try to keep it simple for them to understand.
My daughter is very quiet.
My son asks if im going to die or my heart has cancer. I tell him no. Hes happy with that but my daughter is older and understands things better. I tell my boy to go play video games in his room. He jumps for joy and runs to his room.
She was tears in her eyes and i know shes scared. I know this would be harder to talk to her. She asks more questions and i tell her as much as i can. I show her the hear monitor and explain in detail what the doctor plans are.
I tell her he can see this any time and their is a alert on their if i need help. She tells me to come home. She doesn't want me alone.
She says she wants to keep me safe.
My heart aches hearing this. I tell her I'll be ok.
She looks away. Tell mom she'll let you come home.
I tell her ill talk to her.
I'll hate her if she says no.
I tell not to say things like that. That it's not fair to her mom. She needs her space. But i again tell her ill be ok alone.
She asks if she can stay with me.
I tell her she was school.
She says I'm more important then school.
We talk for another hour about this and i take them home.
We get to the house and i walk them in.
Dads is sick and you don't even care. She runs to her room. My silly boys skips off to his room.
I tell my wife what is going on and mostly what our daughter said and we worrys
So you gave them sugar and brought them home. Its going to be on long night.
So i leave and head home. Once again I'm the bad guy.
He wants me to wear a heart monitor for the next 7 days. I'm to go about my days like normal. He wants to see how my hr is during this time. After the 7 days he's going start me on Propranolol and again I'll be wearing the monitor and see what improvements it makes. He also thinks it will help with my headaches and others issues I'm having. He thinks we've caught this early and with meds i will be fine.
I sat in my car for almost 2 hours. Im relieved to be getting help but im scared too. Now what to tell my kids.
I pick them up and get McDonald's and we stop at crumbl cookies. They have smores cookies this week.
My daughter knows something is up but my son is too excited. After they ate i sit them down and tell them about my appointment. I show them the monitor i have to wear and answer all their questions. Im honest with them but i try to keep it simple for them to understand.
My daughter is very quiet.
My son asks if im going to die or my heart has cancer. I tell him no. Hes happy with that but my daughter is older and understands things better. I tell my boy to go play video games in his room. He jumps for joy and runs to his room.
She was tears in her eyes and i know shes scared. I know this would be harder to talk to her. She asks more questions and i tell her as much as i can. I show her the hear monitor and explain in detail what the doctor plans are.
I tell her he can see this any time and their is a alert on their if i need help. She tells me to come home. She doesn't want me alone.
She says she wants to keep me safe.
My heart aches hearing this. I tell her I'll be ok.
She looks away. Tell mom she'll let you come home.
I tell her ill talk to her.
I'll hate her if she says no.
I tell not to say things like that. That it's not fair to her mom. She needs her space. But i again tell her ill be ok alone.
She asks if she can stay with me.
I tell her she was school.
She says I'm more important then school.
We talk for another hour about this and i take them home.
We get to the house and i walk them in.
Dads is sick and you don't even care. She runs to her room. My silly boys skips off to his room.
I tell my wife what is going on and mostly what our daughter said and we worrys
So you gave them sugar and brought them home. Its going to be on long night.
So i leave and head home. Once again I'm the bad guy.
41-45, M