Sometimes i wonder if we were born in the same culture and religion would we still be together

It hits hard knowing you had to let the love of your life go because you couldn't convert to their religion. She didnt cared but her family would disown her and i couldnt do that to her. I didnt want to be what caused her to lose her connection to her family. I didnt want to convert because i just didnt believe. I couldnt change my idenity no matter how much i wanted to. I just hope her husband treats her right but im glad she's smiling. I traveled the world not realizing i was trying to find another like her and i couldn't. I need to stay single for awhile. To process everything. I didnt reach out nor posting anything online about her. I realized i still care too much to thank her from a far. However, im just happy she can smile again and still has a good connection with her family. Im happy she came into my life when she did and supported me when no one else did. She supported my crazy ideas and some of them became a reality. A big chunk of what i do is because of her impact on me. One day i will be able to truly move on but for now, im just going to focus on healing myself.