I just realized something 😳
I've been sitting here agonizing over whether or not I should go to work even though I am clearly still sick and possibly coming down with a sore throat, and I was feeling so guilty about the idea of missing work. I wondered why I always feel so guilty about missing.
Then I remembered how my mom used to treat me any time I was sick and had to miss school. 😒 It didn't matter if I was pasty, crying, stuffed up nose, cough, etc- she expected me to go to school. She would drag me out of bed, dress me, and send me on my way. Then if I threw up at school or something and the nurse sent me home, my mom would actually chew me out for "being lazy".
Once after throwing up at school, I was being sent home by the nurse, but no one could get in touch with my mom. So they called my dad (he and my mom were already divorced), who promptly without hesitation left work to come pick me up from school. 🥰🙏🏻 I spent the remainder of that day lying on his couch, sipping Sprite to settle my nausea and eating plain Saltines. When my mom found out I'd been sent home early, she raced from work to my dad's house to pick me up, and proceeded to not only yell at ME, but also give my dad a royal dressing down for taking me out of school?!
My mom sort of instilled it in me to believe that missing school/work for self care was BAD and LAZY. I still struggle with this a lot even today. 😪
Then I remembered how my mom used to treat me any time I was sick and had to miss school. 😒 It didn't matter if I was pasty, crying, stuffed up nose, cough, etc- she expected me to go to school. She would drag me out of bed, dress me, and send me on my way. Then if I threw up at school or something and the nurse sent me home, my mom would actually chew me out for "being lazy".
Once after throwing up at school, I was being sent home by the nurse, but no one could get in touch with my mom. So they called my dad (he and my mom were already divorced), who promptly without hesitation left work to come pick me up from school. 🥰🙏🏻 I spent the remainder of that day lying on his couch, sipping Sprite to settle my nausea and eating plain Saltines. When my mom found out I'd been sent home early, she raced from work to my dad's house to pick me up, and proceeded to not only yell at ME, but also give my dad a royal dressing down for taking me out of school?!
My mom sort of instilled it in me to believe that missing school/work for self care was BAD and LAZY. I still struggle with this a lot even today. 😪