My family is awful
Can you imagine being hated by your family for just being born. My aunts and uncles and certain cousins on my father side dislike myself and my siblings because of our father and other reasons out of our control.
So a quick breakdown. My father had a lot of women who he impregnated. He was abuse to them and he never took care of any of his kids. My mother has 7 children for him. She was unable to take care of all so some of us was taken in by other family members. Unfortunately or fortunately for me and 2 other of my siblings we lived with our father's mother and sister. I am the last child who she was not suppose to have and did not want. If it wasn't for my grandmother taking me from the hospital where my mother was planning to just leave me when i was born, I don't know where I woukd be to this day.
I'm doing really good for myself. A good paying job, I can stand on my own 2 feet and never have to struggle to make ends meet. Though, i wish I had me own house. But, there is pain inside of me because of what I experience and was fully aware of as a child. It hurts a lot knowing that family members who you saw regularly, dispises you and your sibling for no reason of our own. But what makes it even worse, is that all my siblings have a dislike for each other and argue among themselves who is really their father's child. I'm not perfect, I too have a dislike for my siblings but not for the same reason as they.
Just thought I would let out here in sw. Right now I'm in the process healing from these family inflicted scars.
So a quick breakdown. My father had a lot of women who he impregnated. He was abuse to them and he never took care of any of his kids. My mother has 7 children for him. She was unable to take care of all so some of us was taken in by other family members. Unfortunately or fortunately for me and 2 other of my siblings we lived with our father's mother and sister. I am the last child who she was not suppose to have and did not want. If it wasn't for my grandmother taking me from the hospital where my mother was planning to just leave me when i was born, I don't know where I woukd be to this day.
I'm doing really good for myself. A good paying job, I can stand on my own 2 feet and never have to struggle to make ends meet. Though, i wish I had me own house. But, there is pain inside of me because of what I experience and was fully aware of as a child. It hurts a lot knowing that family members who you saw regularly, dispises you and your sibling for no reason of our own. But what makes it even worse, is that all my siblings have a dislike for each other and argue among themselves who is really their father's child. I'm not perfect, I too have a dislike for my siblings but not for the same reason as they.
Just thought I would let out here in sw. Right now I'm in the process healing from these family inflicted scars.
31-35, F
