I hate saying it, but my mates are boring. Quickly venting.

I feel very disconnected from them after all these years. I went on a different path and I still am there for them, yet it’s difficult to listen to the constant complaining, negativity and selfishness. I love them, but I am tired and bored of not doing anything with them to make life more full of life! Being around them darkens my own mood. Almost as if I have to dim and dull myself to be in their company. It feels like I’m lying to them and myself.