I’m extremely hard to be with

Because nothing in this world is ever good enough for me. You can bend over backwards for me, you could take your own foot off and I’d still have something to bitch about. Everything always end up having to be my way. I really want to spend the rest of my life with him. He’s an awesome dude and I know he truly loves me. I’m literally the luckiest girl in the world but I abuse it. I push him away, I feel like I stress him out too and I don’t understand why I’m like this. I don’t blame him at all if he hates me deep down inside for being so irritating. And maybe he feels like going to work all the time is the only way he can escape being around me. He needs to tell me these things so that I can just leave.