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MrAboo i was a smoker and i really enjoyed it and i know of the benefits well..but i feel way more grounded now that i've quit. I find it more difficult to make connections sober, but will solve that too. What i enjoy most is that i have more restful sleep, and i do remember important things regarding me and others (that before i would judge as less important and move on). What i miss is the creative thinking, but even with that i felt that there's a threshold. Another thing i do miss is the feeling of my body and spirit connection. I really had that effect, as if something was awakening in me when i was smoking. But i will have to live without that too. I don't exactly know why i quit, but i know i need to stay like that. It helped me to find new role models that wouldn't go on talking about drugs benefits etc.(look for Russell Brand for example)
It's really hard because drugs connects us on so many levels. But as with everything, you let something go, you make space for something else and sometimes you need to give some time before that 'other' thing appears. I've been really hooked in drugs because of the connection with spirituality. But at the same time, whichever experience i might have had with drugs, i would tell myself that it wasn't exactly real and it was because of the drug, as if i couldn't seriously, really, deeply believe myself. .. Sorry that i went on about these really, i just begun writing and they came out. Don't know if anything helps or make sense to you..
