Just failed my exam today.

Y'all are probably gonna think I'm just being self deprecating or whatever. This time it didn't give me my pass/fail immediately like usual, but I don't think there's any getting around it. The study tool I use gives you practice exams, starting at difficulty level 2 and escalating as you pass harder exams by greater margins. I was at about a 4.5 as of two days ago, whereas you need to reach 7 to be exam ready. These are exams where you have to completely immerse yourself for at least a month, but I couldn't really do that this time since I had a new job in a new city. Shit's just been too busy and I've been too tired.

When I registered, I did so knowing that things probably wouldn't go well... but even if I failed, I'd be objectively better off for registering. I still believe that that's true, and I'm gonna go back to studying again either tonight or tomorrow. In six months time, I'm putting this test in the ground, but until then I want to study lightly and... live my life. And also, I wanna play Minecraft with PMBT and play Rimworld by myself. And I wanna help change the world in whatever way it takes.

Thank you all for following me through my actuarial journey