I kind of hate that I care about people too much

Kind of wish I can be my old self. Heartless and selfish but that person hurt everybody I cared about. To the point they don't even want to be around me. That old me, also almost got me killed. I hate being taken advantage of but it's better than being heartless and wanting the world to burn around me. One day, I want to go a week and not see the person who I was when I look in the mirror. self redemption is not easy and a long road

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JestAJester · 31-35, M

The idea is not to be heartless but reserved. And what I mean by that is you are capable of sympathizing to others around you but not necessarily. You have a heart and are loving and giving, but you are also not weak or easily influenced. Your time and dedication to another is earned, not given. Because they'll take and take til there is nothing left. Be kind and gentle but be smart and strong as well.

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empanadas · 31-35, M

@nightjourney 😭 thank you.. I just want to be a light to people. From Being too negative, I can never erase the memories of making the people I care about wanting to die. I have to live with those memories for the rest of my life.

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GunFinger · F

You are really fine how you are. Don't ever change. Just block out the people who could potentially take advantage of you again.

empanadas · 31-35, M

@GunFinger thank you very much

GunFinger · F

@empanadas just telling the truth.🤗

AlyAngel · F

Hugs hon its hard but possible

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SkeetSkeet · 100+, F

You've come a long way and you should be proud. You're just an emotionally healthier version of yourself now ✨️

empanadas · 31-35, M

@SkeetSkeet hopefully one day I can forget all the pain I caused

caccoon · 36-40

I think we also need to sometimes experience both extremes, or can only identify them once we've had some experience doing something we don't want to do or be. You're going about it right. You'll find your balance 💙

Bang5luts · M

@tacobell Thank you for always pointing out that Idahoans suck balls! My neighbors hopefully hear from more than just me.

SkeetSkeet · 100+, F

@Bang5luts excuse me

Bang5luts · M

@SkeetSkeet you're excused. After you.

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