How do you treat/act around people you hate/dislike/lost respect to?
What is your default setting when around people? If it is kind, then how different are you when in the company of someone who lost your respect?
Like I'm not deliberately rude...but I'm not deliberately kind either. I stopped hiding what I'm feeling so I guess my feelings were all in full display.
It's like I was on a gray neutral setting. And the real worrying thing is I find I'm not feeling guilty because I didn't really do things with the intent of being mean. I just wasn't my normal kind and welcoming self. And it made the person feel uncomfortable.
And thinking about it, I find I'd rather she's uncomfortable. I'm not really sure if I like who I am at the moment.
It isn't even about what she did. She knows what she did.
But I find myself thinking about what I did. Because her actions are hers to care about. How cruel and insensitive she was in our time of grief.
But me changing because her actions affected me...I'm not sure what to think.
Like I'm not deliberately rude...but I'm not deliberately kind either. I stopped hiding what I'm feeling so I guess my feelings were all in full display.
It's like I was on a gray neutral setting. And the real worrying thing is I find I'm not feeling guilty because I didn't really do things with the intent of being mean. I just wasn't my normal kind and welcoming self. And it made the person feel uncomfortable.
And thinking about it, I find I'd rather she's uncomfortable. I'm not really sure if I like who I am at the moment.
It isn't even about what she did. She knows what she did.
But I find myself thinking about what I did. Because her actions are hers to care about. How cruel and insensitive she was in our time of grief.
But me changing because her actions affected me...I'm not sure what to think.
