Things in me are changing

I'm getting more bothered about things I know I shouldn't be doing. I am desperate to save up to get married so I can stop just living with my boyfriend. I am not wanting to read my Oracle cards because I'm wondering where the answers are coming from. My crystals have become just decorations. I am more drawn to my bible and my rosary. There are sins I still struggle with but I realiseI am human and make mistakes. I need to major best myself up when I make mistakes.