@elafina It is always good to have friends, real friends, and I think you will understand what I mean.
With someone "important" to you, alongside you, then your being can only benefit from them. It works both ways too, when the connection is real then the feeling is real.
Have you just gone through a life changing experience, or is it a general view on your life?
At my stage in life things just roll along, friendships are all in the past, as I try to maintain my being on this earth.

@Uncfred my whole life rolls like a life changing experience. I have a few transformational phases..last year has been one. But I don't feel that it's ended or that i'very settled. It's nice but also frustrating and unstable for me.

@elafina Dont let it harm you, life is "ever changing", you are young and there is more to come.
You are at a prime time in life, enjoy what is there. learn from it and move on.