Thinking about deathIt’s raining out, It’s dark and I’m sitting here listening to the rain. I don’t see the reason to carry on with any of it. I wish I was dead. My life ended a long time ago. I’m only afraid of hurting my family and my friend. The guilt of my death...See More »
People constantly misjudge you when you’re a quiet personThey think you’re angry when you’re relaxed. They think you’re rude when you’re simply lost in thought. And they think you hate them when you decide to face your demons alone. So you can spare others the pain.
When you learn how to duplicate TNT blocks in Minecraft. “Now I am become death, the destroyer of worlds.”
My Opinion on Adult FriendshipsThis is me just randomly venting. It is so hard to make new friends as an adult. For a myriad of reasons. As an adult people have more priorities, they’re more damaged emotionally and also simply don’t have the time for you. Every “friendship”...See More »
I’m looking to make friendsI don’t know what to say, just throwing this out here and seeing what happens.
There is beauty in sadness “People like us…whatever love we get…we will have to pay for. We will always be alone.” I saw this picture of me and It reminded me of that quote.
I wrote a poemEyes wide open a quarter past midnight. Lying in the shade for dawn’s early light. Upon a wool coffin drawn of soft bedsheet. And not a soul in the world to hear my heartbeat. Joined only by the phantoms of my past. Lamenting that which...See More »
I’ve decided to quit AlcoholI had a bad night a few days ago. I got drunk, really, really drunk and my mistake was being there at the bar alone. Several guys around me tried to take advantage of me because I was obviously there alone and intoxicated. It reminded me of some bad...See More »
Conservative Men are SoftThe traditional macho act is just a massive overcompensation. It’s not attractive at all whatsoever.
Had an encounter with the police tonightI went to an LGBTQ event in my town and tried really hard to make friends. But I couldn’t because I’m very quiet and even when I do talk nobody has any real interest in getting to know me. So I left that place really depressed and called an UBER to...See More »
People want you to live but they don’t want to live with youJust something I’ve noticed. Everyone wants you to stay alive, but only when you have a gun pointed to your head. In normal everyday life? They could care less. You don’t want someone to kill themselves, but you also don’t care enough to actually...See More »
I don’t understand how people overcome trauma or negative life experiencesI’ve battled depression for 12 years, have been on so many different medications and have been into a psychiatric ward three times. I don’t understand how people muster up the will and energy to keep on living. Every moment I constantly carry the...See More »
You ever realize just how broken you are?A stranger at a bar next to me was talking about their friends, marriage and job. And I’m just sitting there thinking “I have almost no friends, cut myself, barely leave my house and have been single for over two years.” I’m like a zombie of a...See More »