I Have Dreams But They Always Stay As DreamsWhat are your dreams? I give up. Let me live vicariously through yours...?
I Am Battling Self HarmDAMMMMMIT! I was doing so well. I had no urges or anything despite the pain I was going through. I was fine! But f*******ck. I need to. I want to. I can't breath. I'm suffocating. I've tried everything. I can't cry.
I Feel Overwhelmed By LifeDon't even know where to begin. I don't want to live anymore, but I don't want to die either. I am so f***ing fed up of living a life that I don't want. I've met none of my expectations or lived any of my dreams. What is the point of even being here?...See More »
I Have Body DysmorphiaLately, I feel like my thoughts are unwillingly constantly plagued by thoughts of disgust, shame and self hatred. I feel so hideous. There's nothing good about me and it's only ever getting worse. Adding on the pounds and too f***ing stupid or lazy...See More »
I Am In PainIt's not the physical type. My mind and heart are deeply tormented. There are a lot of changes happening in life at the moment and I don't feel very stable. I feel wobbly. Recently I've started thinking again of what it would be like to end things -...See More »
I Like to Lie Outside and Watch the StarsI love doing this... yet I never do. I don't get a chance too. I don't make the effort. I really should. I've only done this a handful of times - and everytime I did I felt peace, wonder and awe like no other.
I Wear Ugly Clothes And Have Ugly Hair When I'm DepressedI feel gross, I look gross. I try to look nice. I try to make an effort. But when I stare into that mirror all I can see are hundreds of imperfections. Hideous. Disgusting. Ugly. Fat. Despicable. Yeah I feel like shit so I end up looking shit. Even...See More »
I Am Battling Self HarmDon't know if people have heard this song but it just resonates for me: Icon For Hire - Under the knife https://youtu.be/uqL4T-VlSJA This is the song I'm too scared to write But some of you may need it tonight Oh there you were, heart made of...See More »
I Am Battling Self HarmTrigger warning* Ahhhhh. I need to. I really f**king need to. The urge is so strong. I tried to use a rubber band but it wasn't enough. I need to feel that release. That gasp after having held my head under water for so long. It all hurts so much....See More »
I Am Very Selective When It Comes to Letting People Get CloseI've met someone. Finally. Like really met someone and just clicked on so many levels. But I don't know if I want or know how to let them in. It's not been that long since we started talking. But still I'm scared he'll see me and crush me even more....See More »
I DissociateIt's a regular occurance. I shut down from the world and yet still manage to function (some what). What is wrong with me?! I know why it happens but I hate it sometimes. Sometimes I don't want to close off from the world - I actually want to feel...See More »
I Love to CuddleCan't stop daydreaming about summer night embraces. Feeling weightless but grounded all at once. Unspoken words whispering affirmations. Gentle caresses. Deep contentedness. Just being. Breathing. Secure. Safe. Alas, it is all but a dream....
I Have Many ScarsI dread the day that someone sees them and therefore sees me for who I really am. I have many scars but I hide them where ever I can. I'm lucky that no one has ever seen them - except for doctors by necessity. But sometimes I fear that they will...See More »
I Have Borderline Personality DisorderI shattered into a million tiny pieces when I was given the diagnosis of BPD... In fact, I ran from it and got myself in all sorts of mess. I couldn't bear the thought of that label. In the last few years I've barely coped (quite badly at times), but...See More »
I Have Social AnxietyStaying for two weeks with a friend and their family soon. How the heck will I survive?!... why did I say yes?! I feel like a wreck. I want to go but I'm fearful of making a mistake or embarrassing myself. But I can't back out now.
I Have Many ScarsI hate when my scars start to fade after years. There are new ones always added. But every scar means something and I hate when it starts to disappear. Even if I cut again it's not the same. Its not significant of that moment. Time does heal, but not...See More »
I Am Sick and Tired of Being Sick and TiredLiterally feel like a whole weeks sleep will make no difference... I'm exhausted to the bone. Even coffee isn't working.
I Like To Watch The Stars And MoonHas anyone else seen the harvest moon yet??? It was utterly mesmerising. The autmnal eqinox is truly magnificent. I could stare at the moon and the stars all night. It's as if the world falls away... nothing is important. There's time. I feel small...See More »
I Have Bed, Binge Eating DisorderF*******ck. What have I done?! It took me 3 months to lose just 14 lbs. I've now gained back 3 lbs. It was as if my mind retreated or I wasn't conscious, that I ate so much last night. As a result, I wanna throw up, purge in someway or another, or...See More »