I think the weirdest thing about my mental state is the roller coaster But I guess it’s inverted? It feels months of steady decline until I hit rock bottom. And then a day or two where I rocket upwards and feel so overwhelmed with emotion I don’t know what to do with myself. And then it’s back to the gradual decline....See More »
I remember long ago when my kids were little There were only 2 of them back then. And for whatever reason for about 2 months this was the anthem of our house and we used to have a little dance party every day and listen to it at least 5 times.
You I sleep in a room surrounded by instruments.I don’t know how many. 7, maybe 8. It’s been months since I’ve played any of them. My soul is dead. :-(
Saw the doctor again todayGot out on restricted work duty. No more than 5 hours a day. Not sure how that’s going to work with my job but I’ll figure it out. Today is the first day in a while I’ve felt like I’m improving. And I was able to drive a long distance for the...See More »
I just got back from the doctor againI have an infected wound I don’t even remember getting. It will be fine but it’s pretty obvious my body is still screwed up from the poisoning. Sigh.
You know in the days before smart phones us kids adapted.The Ghetto News Network? If you know you know. We had a binders of stories from kids who died of the cold, died of an overdose, died from a terf war. Their stories. Passed down and trusted to those of us that might make it. Some of mine are in...See More »
So I went to the 24 hour gas station near my houseThe clerk was literally in tears when I got there. Why? Because her husband is going to prison on Monday. Why was she at work? Because they don’t give her a key and if she leaves they will arrest her too for leaving all that money and goods...See More »
Does our pain really make us?I write sad music. I pour everything into it. I don’t really play for anyone but it’s still mine. No one will put those notes in that order with the same inflection as me. It can’t be replicated. It’s mine alone. But it hurts. Is it worth it?...See More »
The US is the greatest country and has the best medical careIf I had listened to the bosses at work I might have died and even if I survived I would have had even worse brain damage If I had listened to the owners of the property I might have died and even if I survived I would have had even worse brain...See More »
I’m home from the hospitalLooking back it’s scary how sick I was. I don’t really remember much of the last couple of days other than thinking it was no big deal and not understanding why everyone was so concerned at the hospital. Sigh. Maybe sometimes I’m too optimistic for...See More »
So we walk into the place today to set up for workSmell gas. That’s a nope. We eventually realize what we’re smelling and the headaches have started so we book it outside to set up. I spent this time sitting in there. Standing in there. And breathing heavily from hauling tables and chairs outside....See More »
I need to simp more on hereI’ll start now. Cept I’m going to change it before I send a bunch of y’all pervs to her profile. She knows I’m simping hard for her though in spirit. 😌
You know even the term “living wage” seems a little scary when you get down to itWhat if instead of prices we put up how many hours of your life you’d have to give up to someone else’ profit to afford at that “living wage”? How terrifying would the grocery store be then?
I’ve been at my job for almost a year nowAnd today is probably the first day I’ve truly dreaded going into work. I’m so sad it’s gotten this bad I liked it better when my job made me happy. :-(
Before those idiots on here jump onto it…The new COVID vaccine coming out is actually made of moths and tree bark. They’re going to laugh and whine about that regardless of what anyone says so yea…that’s how they made it. But it’s dope and it’s solid technology and if you haven’t gotten...See More »
Addiction is something I’ve struggled with immenselyBut I have so much empathy for alcoholics. My demons were prescribed. I don’t have to see it every day in the store or on TV. Real talk…y’all are the real ones. Seriously.
I let my boss know I’m looking for another job today.It’s the right thing but I still hate it. I love what I do. But I need more money. :-( Muneh is dum.