I Have Something to SaySo I was asked to speak this week. I consider it an honor, but I am not a public speaker even though i have been speaking in small groups for a few years now. So I have something to say, but I have so much and I need to sit with myself and...See More »
I Am At Peace With Who And What I AmToday I am at peace. I remember last year at this time. I was a mess. Something had happened and I was devastated. I went through the motions, but I was in so much pain emotionally. Today I am in such a different place, but in more ways than one....See More »
I Sometimes Feel LonelyI remember for many years I felt this deep loneliness. It was like I was the only one in the world. I could see some people, but they would open their mouths to speak and it was like gibberish. I started working on myself and just getting in tune...See More »
I Want to Know Your Marriage Proposal StoryI have received many marriage proposals. I started getting them when I was 17 years old. I received one last night. I consider it a compliment. I was home and I had fallen asleep. When my friend texted me. She was struggling with something so she...See More »
I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And FeelingsToday, I was sitting here thinking what am I feeling today? The thing that came to me is mixed emotions. So many things are making me happy. I am happy that I know what I want. I am happy that I know what I do not want. I was doing a meditation...See More »
I Will Be Myself And Not What Others Want Me To BeSocial media.... I'm on a few social media sites and sadly and not so sadly, I'm not on much. I've been told that I'm online but I'm actually not. I log in for a few minutes in the morning and I forget to log off. I might not answer emails quickly...See More »
I Really Hate Lying And BetrayalBetrayal I know why you are requesting me for a friend. I will not allow you to hurt me any longer. You always come looking for me for some sick need inside of you. Betrayal cuts so deep and while there is forgiveness so that I can move on with...See More »
I Love This Songhttps://youtu.be/3gydcChFnzQ Inner Demons Julia Brennan They say don't let them in Close your eyes and clear your thoughts again But when I'm all alone, they show up on their own 'Cause inner demons fight their battles with fire Inner demons don't...See More »
I Have to Say SomethingToday, Last night about 10 pm, I saw a few bumps on my legs. Then my tummy and remembered I had been scratching my back. I went to look and I'm covering with red hives. To connect the dots on my back would be to paint me completely. I ran to the...See More »
I Gave My Heart, All Of My Heart, And Hope It's In Good HandsI give my heart to many. I have often wondered if God realizes that it's not that big to take everything. But I also realize that God does not make mistakes. So I have to handle things and not get lost in them. The pain sometimes is devastating. The...See More »
I Look Young For My AgeI remember when I met my boyfriend. He needed my license to get into the base, but what he didn't tell me was that he was going to check out my birthday. He took it and gave it to the guard and handed it back to me. He did not say anything else....See More »
I Am a United States Air Force GirlfriendThe first night we met was outside the base. From then on, our own personal weekends were when he be did his weekends. He would let me know and I'd meet him Friday night to the room. He'd do his thing Saturday and i'd either go into town or stay in...See More »
I Don't Feel WellToday I am not feeling well. I wish my boyfriend lived closer to me. I will move right along and I can't wait for this medication to be over so I can go back to being normal. I am shaky, headache, mushy head, weak, and kind of teary eyed today. I...See More »
I Love the Sound of His VoiceThe plan is, time for the first phone call. It's Sunday 4 pm and the time has come. I don't normally call someone. I said I was nervous but I recognize I was excited. I dailed *67 and his number. Anxiously I wait. Finally the hello comes. I shyly...See More »
I Want To Share This Short StoryWork of Art A woman sits with her knees drawn up some dressed in a little red outfit, enhancing her figure and olive skin beautifully as she leans her head back and her long curled hair falls to her waist. Her face so at peace, her high cheekbones...See More »
I Love PhotographyI love taking pics. The ones where your breath catches at the view, the eyes of a person, etc
I Sometimes Think I Have A Way Too Kind HeartOne of the things I love about myself is my kind heart. I can feel deeply and that helps me to be a good person, yes they're is a but. . That means that I feel other's pain. I have to be mindful to remind myself that it's their pain not mine. I...See More »
I Find Peace In NatureThe last week few days have been horrendous. I just left the doctor's office. He's comment to me was: I'm trying to keep you out of the hospital. The antidodics are making me sick. But I'll eat toast or something. So I decided, who cares what I'm...See More »
I Am Shaped Like An Hour Glass and Love ItI remember people use to sing "Brick House" to me. I am blessed.
I Have PtsdYesterday started like normal. I was mentally and physically in a good place. I went to work and all was well. Things slowly went badly. I have my headsets on listening to something when someone barges in. She was mad and crying. I immediately stood...See More »
I Have Been In An Abusive RelationshipI was in an abusive relationship. It didn't start out that way. It started out with him seeing me and then he would not leave me alone. He would always be around where ever I was. Eventually we went out and then got married. It was not long after...See More »
I Belive In New BeginningsEvery morning to me is a new beginning. For some reason I wake up about 6 am every morning. I do not have to be at work for 3 hours from then but I go through this routine. I get my headsets on and do a meditation. I then give gratitude to God for...See More »