My head is full of noiseAnd in the last three days I've had two users here message me about being "cute" to then find out they're 11 and 13 respectively. I don't know what I've managed to do to cause that, because I feel deeply uncomfortable.
I spent several days in Australia this weekI left NZ on Tuesday afternoon, and left Australia on Thursday night. It was a decent time, but the flight back was delayed for a few hours so I didn't get home until 3:30am (instead of the scheduled 1:30am), and still haven't recovered. I did get to...See More »
I feel like I'm going crazyI told a female friend that I thought I was ugly, and she was (and still is) insistent that I am in fact good looking. I asked a couple of other female friends if that was true and they said yes. Apparently I also have beautiful eyes. It just really...See More »
Flames of War update - 11 OctoberLast night I went through the 20+ bases of Panzergrenadiers I bought off Lucas to see what I could do to make sure they were built correctly, and chucked out all but two bases and two Panzerschreck bases which were built the way I want them to be....See More »
This post is going to get all kinds of flagsSo for the past 2+ months (I think it's two months, but it may have been longer and I just don't remember) I've been incredibly withdrawn, because I've been struggling with suicidal depression so a magnitude which has left be barely able to function...See More »
Warhammer progress Barbgaunts are nearly done, just got to wait for the texture paint to dry before finishing off the bases. Grey Knights are coming along well. For some reaon the black paint isn't covering as well over the spray as it usually does, so more coats are...See More »
Hobby progress I've spent most of today spraying and painting T-34 and ISU-152 models. This is the progress I'd made this morning.
Hobby updateIt's been a while since I posted about hobby stuff. I've been pretty busy with work and just keeping on top of not dying, so there's not much to say. For Warhammer, I've started Grey Knights, and picked up the air version of Grey Knight Steel paint...See More »
I hate this depressionI'm struggling with things yet again. I was good for like a week, then it's all gone. I feel sad and alone and on edge and I know I'm too much to deal with. Maybe everyone really would be better off without me.
I'm so tiredThere are so many thoughts swirling around in my head that I feel weighed down by them all. The most annoying one at the moment just repeats "wtf is wrong with me?" constantly, because if there's one thing I know, it's that being single into your...See More »
I don't know what to put hereIt's been several weeks of slogging, but I think I'm finally coming out the other side. It helps that one of my friends called me her hero (it wasn't meant as much more than as a sort of thanks, but still), and another said that I'm attractive...See More »
Flames of War stuff I built some new tanks! Three Panthers to support my Fallschirmjager against heavier Soviet armour The start of a Hungarian army with Zrinyi assault guns. They'll definitely need something heavier to back them up though.
Tdudideigft up bfd toI'm so tired of everything and everyone. I'm so alone I might as well just be invisible. Nobody wants me around, so it's probably better for the world if I wasn't in it.
I bought more flames of war stuff :)I got an army theatre book (Bagration - Axis Allies), a Hungarian assault gun battery, Fallschirmjager mortars (8cm and 12cm), and another box of BA-64 armored cars.
Redheads are cute afI don't know why I'm posting this, or why anyone would care about this opinion given it's so minor as to be trivial. But I think ginger women are attractive, and that's something that's been stuck in my head for a little while that I needed to get...See More »
Fallschirmjager PaK40 platoon I built these last night. I have 4 T-34s to finish building, and then I'll be building my Fallschirmjager Company
My parcel arrived!I ordered some WW2 German stuff, specifically a Fallschirmjager Company set and Fallschirmjager 7.5cm anti-tank platoon set, on Friday. I'm excited to put it together, although their instructions are a little annoying to read (i.e. no instructions...See More »
Insert title hereI'm sitting here at my volunteer job, completely alone (when I'm very much not supposed to be by myself) because nobody else turned up. I saw a post on here just before that said "you're hotter than you think you are" and despite knowing it was...See More »
Maybe I should goEveryone around me always seems to want space, so maybe I'll give them as much as possible. Although it might not be 'space' so much as 'scorched earth'.
Who knows. Just stuff I guessIt's weird to think that it's been so long since I joined EP. It was 12 October 2012, and I was in tears struggling to fight seemingly insurmountable suicidal thoughts, googling to find... support maybe? Or ideas for ending it all - I no longer...See More »
I'm so tiredI'm short, fat, ugly, and wish it could all just end. That said, I'm not actually going to act on those thoughts, instead just vent them here.