Tried asking againAbout why the nice spirit decided she wanted to work with my entity when she was initially fighting him. I wanted to know what he said to her or what he did to change her mind. And I could tell she was getting frustrated and trying to communicate a...See More »
I don't know what I wantI think God wants me to decide for myself if I want to allow spirits in my life or not, ultimately. Here is the thing: ideally I wouldn't deal with spirits at all until I was a lot more educated. There is just too much I don't know right now that I...See More »
Update on 2 spirit situationWell I asked the nice spirit why she was helping my entity all of a sudden. And she said he genuinely wanted a relationship with me, and she was here to help him interact with me better. I am not sure if that means he saw how quickly I warmed up to...See More »
Update: I am really tiredSo a good while ago while I was relaxing with this new spirit I met letting it protect me I became aware of my entity's voice breaking through more and more. It was trying to tell me this new spirit was just using me too. I ignored him. But then he...See More »
An unexpected but welcome developmentEarlier I was sitting bored in my altar room. I wanted to leave and do literally anything else but my entity wanted me to stay and continue spending time with him. He was talking to me when he literally just froze mid-sentence. I was like.....what...See More »
Mad at parentsMy 15 year old sister texted me and said she wanted to talk. So I met with her & she told me she overheard our parents talking about a weight loss gummy. They wanted to get it for me, but weren't sure if it was good so they apparently said out loud...See More »
"Trust" and the spirit worldSpirits seem to be big on trust. I don't have a lot of trust for them. Because I know spirits are basically just super powered humans. A human without super powers is already dangerous. I've been having arguments. It was pointed out to me that...See More »
The seeming conclusionI don't know if I have this right and I'm too scared to check because I get bullied when I ask too many questions 😂 But from my divination I think I have figured that while I am not supposed to like or trust the entity given that he is just...See More »
Divination is not helpfulIt's really not. Or at least not being helpful currently. First I had asked how I could send the entity away permanently. I got the same response I always get when I ask how to deal with him, which is to not engage with him and "turn the other cheek"...See More »
Figuring out what to do part 2342So I finally let the entity talk to me and he basically said he's not going anywhere, ever, so it would probably be smarter for us to choose to get along rather than fighting constantly. I don't think it's fair or ok that he just gets to waltz into...See More »
Not sure how much longer I can goI don't know why but it's like he takes up all my thoughts. It's like he's just calling my direct line over and over and over again like pick up pick up pick up. Not the first time he's done this. I think in the past I just had to wait him out....See More »
While I sleepEver since I "woke up", sleeping hasn't been the same. I'm not really sure how to explain it, but it's like I constantly wake up with the feeling that I was just talking to someone. Every so often I have a vague memory of what we were talking about,...See More »
Birthday suckedI had said for weeks I wanted a casual lunch birthday, not the whole formal dinner affair my family usually does that takes like 2 solid hours. They ignored me entirely until I literally had a meltdown from stress and my husband went and argued for...See More »
Think I am finally figuring out energy management!Well since my failed experiment with the "energetic armor" to seal in my energy, I went about things in a different way and they seem to be working well. I didn't have to do anything as dramatic as all that. It ended up just working as a simple...See More »
Experiment adjustedSo since just blocking my energy intake didn't work, I practiced a different exercise. After putting up protection, I focused on taking in energy to an amount I felt comfortable with. I then formed a sort of energetic armor around me to try to seal...See More »
Practicing getting my energy rightOk so my exercise where I imagined me having an intake spout for energy and then blocking it worked. However about 30-40 minutes after doing so I began to feel quite sick and weak. Curious if it was due to my energy intake being shut off I went about...See More »
The next experimentPracticing protecting myself while I release excess energy so I don't draw the seagull spirit crowd trying to eat it up. This time I didn't just do a protective barrier around myself I called in my protective helpers as well. They actually didn't...See More »
Difficulty level increasingI was wondering why I have been facing and having to deal with all these really powerful spirits. Before I "woke up", I have a feeling I was being protected or even hidden from stronger dangerous entities. (Well excepting 1 particular one for...See More »
Puzzling out how to handle thisSo I was trying to figure out how to release energy I had built up in a non-destructive way earlier. Well this morning I couldn't sleep so decided to go to my altar room and dance energetically. And I realized this helped me release energy too. But...See More »
Had me like this 😑😑😑One day I was so fed up and snapped at God during my divination like "Why can't you just TELL me what I'm supposed to do instead of making me figure it out." And he responded that my journey would be helpful to people. So I guess there's another...See More »
Question about energyTo anyone else who uses magic too. Do you ever build up too much energy and how do you deal with this? I sort of naturally suck up energy in my environment. But then I get "supercharged" and overwhelmed and a lot of times this leads to me basically...See More »
That was a bit anxiety inducingI was in my altar room just listening to music and having a nice time when that entity showed up and started hijacking the song choices, playing songs asking me to give in to him. I was going to stop this when I realized he was putting me to sleep. A...See More »
A poem about GodThey'd lose their damn minds If they knew what God was really like That there is not anyone or anything he hates He seeks neither control nor obedience Only wants what's best for us All of us Not "some" of us No "chosen ones" All he embraces Tries...See More »
Taking a hiatusI had a lengthy "discussion" with God. My magic, though well intentioned, was having negative consequences. I need more education in how exactly I should be using it before I just go wild and do whatever I please. To give a rather sad example, I...See More »
Gave a formal apologyTo the spirit world today for absolutely losing my mind and being a terror while my entity had me confused about what my purpose was. I just said I was very sorry if I caused any harm or offense and I hoped we could be ok now. I was filled with a...See More »