Do you ever think about your own death in the past tenseI envision people talking about me...."did you hear Joshua shot himself?"
How do you break down a confident and capable operator?You tell him he is useless and a piece of shit for about six solid months.
If today was the high water mark for the rest of your life would it be worth going on?What if today was the best your life will ever be and every day is down hill from here?
I have struggled with suicidal thoughts for DECADES. I wonder if eventually I will just give in one day.
It took me years of planning but I finally figured a fool proofed way to end it and have my insurance pay off for certain. Secret, but can u guess?
Do you have a picture of you WITH the love of your life? I don't. When I was with her it felt like it would never end so who needed photosI would cut off my own finger Yakuza style to have one now.
Did your parents prepare you for a life like THIS?I guess we all want to shield our children from hardships but is that a disservice to them?
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Have you ever suffered with the agony of wanting to die? To kill yourself? What keeps you coming back for more?
I am particularly afflicted. Buying stuff makes me feel good but later throwing stuff away, purging stuff makes me feel just as good. Anyone else like
Does buying something make you feel emotional? What and how does it make you feel?I buy high quality office supplies, note books and planners to feel organized, successful and important. I used to have a big library and buying books made me feel important. Buying guns and ammo makes me feel safe.
Why is it so easy to fail and so hard to succeed?It seems like my default mode is failure. Maybe i need too much to feel like i have succeeded. I feel like a shitty husband, father, son and person of belief and faith. I guess it boils down to not doing those things we know must be done to succeed...See More »
Why aren't service businesses like banks, barber shops and auto mechanics open nights and weekends to be more convenient for the rest of us who work
How do i have so much and still hate my life and want to die?I try to think about it logically. I have a family, a reasonable marriage, a good relationship with my son, a house we own and a car that runs but still I keep a gun in the car in case I decide to pull over and end it. My psychiatrist doesn't like...See More »
What does it say about my mental health status if my shrink texts me on her day off to check on me?My nurse practitioner who has been in the field for 25 years just texted me...and she just saw me thursday. I must be in rough shape. I dont feel like i am but i answered her honestly when she asked if i have suicidal thoughts. Thats probably it.
How close can you get to suicide?My job is killing me, but it keeps the lights on and a roof over our heads. I hate it. I have nightmares about it and I have to take anxiety medication on my way to work. My wife made me agree not to quit unless it was a literal choice between...See More »
What is it with the desire to confess?I am not sure what the deal is but it's very real. It might be that I want people to know me better. It might be that I want to be punished in some way. I don't know but I do know I feel like going on Facebook and confessing, just, everything. I'm...See More »