What is love?Idk. I haven't been able to figure it out. Is it that fifteen minutes of friction or the fact you care for them with your life? Is it the part you'll do anything to keep them alive? Is the part when you love them so much that you just care about...See More »
I just wish I f*cking mattered.Drunk me speaking. Ignore at best. Had a bit of weed lol. What do I do to matter? To feel like I have a value. I feel f*cking ugly. I was told that I'm bloody unattractive. I was made to feel like an option. F*ck. It hurt. It hurt so much that I...See More »
Why do you get high?Idk anymore. It started out as a way for me to forget stuff. Escalated to stop crying. Then came a point when I felt so much and I wanted to feel nothing. I'm numb the third time in a row and it's good. I can't feel shit. I can't cry after I'm high....See More »
Have you told someoneThat "I'll be there no matter what happens. You call me at midnight for an emergency and I'll be there as fast as I can be". Have you meant this? If so what was their reaction if you did tell them something along the lines of what was told above?
A Perfect Circle - Vanishing Disappear Disappear Higher Higher Into the air Slowly disappear No, no longer here Disappear Disappear Thinner, thinner Into the air Never really here Wasn't ever (ever) Like a thought brushing up against a sigh Floating away Floating away...See More »
Honestly I feel deadI don't want to move. I don't want to work. I'm done feeling things. I have been drinking to numb it all. Ive even gone to the extent to mix weed with alcohol which I shouldnt. But then again, I can't sleep. I feel so much of everything hitting me...See More »
Highly Suspect - Little one. My favorite part of this song is this: (Quote) Ahh. The perfect amount of depression.
Drunk confessionIt's funny I couldn't feel pain when I was hurt physically. No matter how much I bled. Be it the accident, I was in recently or the time I scraped my knee again after getting hurt. I literally watched my scab fall off and bleed. Did it hurt? Yes....See More »
This is what my mother sent me realizing how people are in my life. She knew what was going on and sent this to me lol.
Random stuffSpoiler alert: Sorry about the random stuff I keep writing on here. I can't express any of them in real life. I'm stuck in a place where I have to act as if nothing is happening. Idk what to do in that case. I want to bawl my eyes out and cry but I...See More »
Random rant2nd night in a row(well technically it's been over a week) where I can't sleep lol. Been awake since 2 AM. It's 4:12AM as we speak. Damn I miss the liquor. At least, it helped me not overthink. It helped me sleep and numb it all. Even for a short...See More »
Cigarettes after s*x - John Wayne He's got so much love for her But he doesn't know what to do Sitting in the car Waiting outside of school He's in for a heartbreak if it's all been blind faith From my point of view Baby, he's got to be crazy Living like he's John Wayne Always...See More »
Random rantSometimes I feel only animals love me lol. Especially stray dogs. There's gotta be something wrong with me that humans can't see.