I Am Looking Forward To A New Beginning And A New Life

My goal now includes finishing college first (3 semesters and 1 internship left) and then suddenly leave where I currently am without any words to anyone so I can start a new life somewhere else. I have only one friend irl and well I guess I'd let him know. But apart from him I'd like to leave without a word to anybody and leave a 'suicide' letter for the few people that'd notice. That they should consider me dead. And forget completely about me. I'd change my name, obviously, and start life all over again. I think that's way better than committing suicide. I kind of had the 'idea' when I was reading up more on what could happen after death. I'm kind of convinced in reincarnation, karma, and all that stuff so I kind of just figured that instead of dying, and going through regret in the afterlife and then starting ALL OVER AGAIN I could just 'start over' while keeping the 'progress' I've made so far. I don't know if this makes any sense at all but I'll try it out lol. I'm not interested in life to begin with so this is sort of like an adventure for me and well I could always die any time. So right now all I have to do is figure out how to endure the remaining two and a half years before I'm done with college.