I Am Looking Forward To A New Beginning And A New Life
I haven't written here in a long time, so I thought I would come back. I guess this is kind of like my online blog lol
After trying an open marriage, finding a boyfriend and realizing being married at all wasn't working anymore...my husband and I decided to separate. But, my boyfriend and I broke up (about two months ago). So, now I am starting to date and rediscover myself.
If you know me, or know anything about my situation...none of this is a surprise. I've been married 19 years to a man who has been emotionally detached for many years. I tried. I tried therapy with him, I tried mixing it up, I tried talking to him till I was blue in the face! But, a marriage takes two. And I was the only one trying...
As it is right now, he and I still live under the same roof with the kids. He sleeps downstairs, I sleep upstairs. He and I are still great friends and never fight. We've always been great friends. But, that was part of the problem. Friendship does not a marriage make LOL
The kids are okay. Nothing has really changed in the house because nothing was happening to begin with LOL My son has to stay in the school he is in (he's autistic in an all autistic school) because of the district. So, it's all a work in progress. It's been strange, but I can already feel the shift happening toward a positive outcome.
I feel more spiritually centered. I feel like I can help people more (which is an odd part of the shift, but there it is), and I feel like I'm becoming an even better version of myself. I've been working on myself for the past few years because I felt this coming.
I'm starting to date and so is he. Just taking things one day at a time. Learning, loving, opening options, pushing previous comfort zones and starting my new life chapter.
After trying an open marriage, finding a boyfriend and realizing being married at all wasn't working anymore...my husband and I decided to separate. But, my boyfriend and I broke up (about two months ago). So, now I am starting to date and rediscover myself.
If you know me, or know anything about my situation...none of this is a surprise. I've been married 19 years to a man who has been emotionally detached for many years. I tried. I tried therapy with him, I tried mixing it up, I tried talking to him till I was blue in the face! But, a marriage takes two. And I was the only one trying...
As it is right now, he and I still live under the same roof with the kids. He sleeps downstairs, I sleep upstairs. He and I are still great friends and never fight. We've always been great friends. But, that was part of the problem. Friendship does not a marriage make LOL
The kids are okay. Nothing has really changed in the house because nothing was happening to begin with LOL My son has to stay in the school he is in (he's autistic in an all autistic school) because of the district. So, it's all a work in progress. It's been strange, but I can already feel the shift happening toward a positive outcome.
I feel more spiritually centered. I feel like I can help people more (which is an odd part of the shift, but there it is), and I feel like I'm becoming an even better version of myself. I've been working on myself for the past few years because I felt this coming.
I'm starting to date and so is he. Just taking things one day at a time. Learning, loving, opening options, pushing previous comfort zones and starting my new life chapter.
46-50, F
