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I Have Faith In God

This is the continuation of my last post
My Visit to the Doctor

I am often asked if God loves me so much ,why doesn't He heal me ?
He healed my Daughter who was crippled from age 8 -12
Doctors said it was impossible ,but none the less
she has no more signs she ever had a bone disease
So here is the answer to why not me

Now some in the past have asked if God loves me so much why does He not totally heal my back like He did for my Daughter .
Actually He did ,I walked out of a hospital under my own power in March of 1990
I had just had major back surgery ,and part of my spine removed
I was told to never do construction or to be lifting on heavy engine parts again
they set my limitations for my back 25 lbs and my right arm 10 ,,and to keep my right elbow at my side as often as possible and NO OVERHEAD work at all .
So 9 days later I put in hardwood floors ,Oak ,that also needed to be finished after it was installed ,so a pretty sizable job for a healthy man ,let alone on that just had back surgery .
I gave all the glory to doctors and my ability to pay and my own refusal to quit ,
"No Doctor will tell me when I'm done ",I paid to be able to walk again was my way of thinking .
I did praise God for not letting them paralyze me ,but the surgery was no miracle in my book so ,still something I could give man praise for (Now my Daughter ,her healing was impossible ,man can't repair bone like God can ,even the best Doctors said her healing was impossible ,,but it happened )
But I was able to walk the next morning after surgery ,5 days later discharged ,
told to stay off my feet and laying down ,,absolutely NO SITTING ,to be laying flat or standing but NO Sitting at all for the next 6 months , (somehow it could put pressure on my spine where they removed a huge portion of it ,possibly make it break ,I was told to consider my spine
"Made out of Glass "

But as quick as possible ,"I was back " Playing rock in the clubs and lifting Drywall like I had never been laid up because of it ,,take a pain pill ,,chase it with a beer
I was called the "machine "again by my so called friends ,nothing keeps me down .
But a little tiny srur in my shoulder showed me who was boss ,,
hard to do anything when you can barely raise your arm ,,,or lift a coffee cup with it

That little sliver cost me everything ,,My wife ,my home ,my job ,my music career
I went from the big shot with a crew that couldn't be outdone by anyone ,
A band living my dream ,a huge fan base all over the country ,,to homeless
living on the streets ,,a "has been " that has no clue how to even support himself .
I had to finally swallow my pride and take whatever job I could get .
No one cares your a Vet and how many lives you've saved ,or how many Locomotives you've overhauled ,or how many mansions you have built ,or how big the crowds were you have played for when you are applying for a job ,they want to know what you can do for them .

I paid $100.00 to have my car detailed before all this ,and it not be all that good of a job ,I still had to finish the job to get it right .so it was very humbling
I ended up washing 30 cars a day to support myself for $5.00 an hour to start with
After I finally gave my life (what little of it that was left to Christ )
He turned my life around ,and my attention to doing a good job in spite of my arm and back opened other doors for me ,and better pay ,but I had to be humbled first
I was a very arrogant ,self reliant know it all ,,but my arm and back the way they were ,no one wanted to hear who I was ,they wanted to see just what I was capable of now .

God and God alone , healed me of my Addictions ,and my Alcoholism and He gave me back a sound mind I did everything I knew how to do to destroy it (at least my memory )
He opened the door for me to find my kids that had been hid from me for 12 years
I got to see them for the first time since 1983 in june of 1995
(Its crazy when you have to use process of elimination to tell which of your kids is which )
By November 5th ,1995 I walked out of a courthouse with full custody of 2 ,1 had turned 18 in August ,,she was 5 when I seen her last ,now she was off to college .
Her Mom would not give them their clothes ,and the next day it was cold ,they needed coats .
I come home on Nov 6th to a check of $1000.00 in my mail box
The next day another one ,,$1000.00
The next day one for $9.000.00 ,,my back pay from Social Security
Turns out I was approved in Aug 1994 ,,they held my money up all that time to see if I owed the Government any money .SSI ,Student loans ,back child support
(I actually did owe a student loan they later dismissed ,and $17.000.00 in back child support that I later paid off every dime ,but they did not deduct it from my back pay after holding up my check over a year )

Had I received that money sooner I could have saved my life that I lost
They did not find the cause of my arm problem until after my wife left me ,,she was told by my Doctor he could find noting wrong with me "It was all in my head "
She was unable to save our things on her own ,and it took its toll on her (my addictions and alcohol use played its part too )
But now looking back ,,,all that was the best thing that ever happened to me
If my wife was not willing to honor her vows "For better or worse ,sickness and health ,rich or poor ,,than its best I found out ...she threw away a good man ,,
In poor health and with my addictions I still gave her a good life .
but I do get her reasons for leaving and my confession of infidelity 6 years earlier didn't help either ,but her main reason was she was lonely ,she did not want all the stuff I thought made her happy ,,the thing she wanted most was me .
but my job and my music career and my friends ,,she was always taking the back seat
But my change was real ,but she said I changed so fast she just couldn't believe it was real ,,but it was God ,,I was unable to change me ,but God did a quick work on me thats for sure ,,after I asked Him to prove He was real ,He did in a very big way .
In ways no man could have ,God gets all the glory

But now I am glad it all happened ,,but it sure hurt like hell when it was happening and I was very scary at the time ,but to go from homeless to having my kids back and not have to work anymore in such pain ,I even got to finally record an album and I did not pay a dime .and I did concerts again ,but this time they were for the Lord ,the one I broke my promises to "Lord ,If you will just let me walk again I promise to serve you "
That is a promise I should have honored .

So I have rented for the last 23 years (I lost 2 homes that were paid for to EX's )
I live within my means ,but now I want for nothing and I still even do drywall from time to time ,and I work on engines .but now its to give back ,not so I can feed my ego and say I am one of the best anymore .I am slow ,but I still do quality work .
I was able to put my kids through school and enable them to go to college
I was here for my girls when 2 of them lost their men to death and my oldest through a divorce ,my Ex who hid my kids from me ,well she and I are close now .
I have a son ,born on my birthday ,and my Grandson and I plan to tour a bit this summer
And I can walk ,and play music ,and work as I need to
and make Doctors ask HOW
God is how ,,He keeps me humble ,I know who enables me
and He meets all my needs and He healed my Daughter ,only a fool would not be grateful .
I do not care who believes in Him or not
I do and no amount of "God is not real " can change that
If my Doctor believes in God or not ,I didn't ask
But my Doctor was blown away ,,Again our Father enables me ,to do what "Logic " says is impossible ,,,glad I don't let that "Logic "stuff control what I believe ,I feel sad for those who refuse to see ,,His handy work is all around you .
you just fool yourself ,and you are "TO wise "to see
And God will use the simple things to confound the wise ,,
But my back is not so simple ,,even they wise say "How ? thats impossible ,how are you able to do that "? ,,My answer is God ,,He has His hand on me
I love the ones who feel it is their duty to tell us "God is not real ,you believe in a fairy tale used to control men "
Let me give you a little info regarding that .
Man asked for a King ,the very first one was King Saul
Before then they had no worries about famine ,or enemies ,starvation ,lack of any kind .
But as King rebelled against God ,they did terrible things to the people
They did not need religion to control the people ,,you did as they said ,or they fed you to the lions ,or cut off your head ,or used you as tourch's
2 main religions were Christian and pagan Rome ,and Rome managed to covert Christians into pagans ,,,Man used religion to control men ,,and they did that to themselves
They asked for a King ,God gave them one
In the 3rd century BC ,the greatest arts and science ever under one roof was housed at the Library of Alexandria ,,Rome destroyed it ,but guess where most of the records and art ended up ?just a rings worn by a Pope of old could buy a country they have a room full of them ...Its not God who let the people down ,its their own free will and Religion that did ,,but Christ has made a way you can come to God on you own
And call Him Abba Father ,the choice is up to us all .
God is very real ,,I prove it every day ,,I walk when I should not be able to
Thats all the proof I need ,,,but I have seen so much more than that
Your "Logic " can't sway me ,it deceives you ,,and robs you of your blessing and birthright
I know who I am ,I am a born again son of the Most High God
To Him alone goes the glory
KayraJordynF
This is such an amazing life story you've shared. God is working in my heart daily, and this is something I know I'll read more than once because it reminds me again of His grace and mercy. I have often prayed for healing for myself, as have the churches I've gone to over the years. I do not believe God has abandoned me because I'm in pain. He walks me through every moment of it. I am so glad for your many miracles following your painful setbacks... and I am especially glad for your daughter's healing, and I've never been more grateful that someone doesn't have to experience what we who are in constant pain experience. And yet, in this world of hurt, I find God speaks to me in my darkest hours. I wouldn't trade my life for the life of someone who is well, because God gave me this life and this body and this mind for a reason, and I want to utilize it all as best I can to serve Him. Thank you, brother, for sharing a part of your life. Thank you for sharing your heartache and the many blessings God has poured out. I am a babe in faith again, but the Lord is teaching me every day. God bless you and your family. 馃挍
rckt14861-69, M
@KayraJordyn I am glad you were blessed ,hopefully encouraged by it .
Many think I was raised a Christian and brain washed into believing in a myth or fairy tale,in an imaginary friend .
And even when I share about my Daughters (My middle Daughter just had a son in October that she was told to hang it up she would never be able to have a child of her own ,but our Father loves that word impossible )
Some still come back at me with their "Logic " ,and calling me a liar ,and some I have even shown them medical documents and its not enough ,that proves nothing .
So now its just a testimony ,not an attempt to prove God is real ,they can take it or leave it ,
its posted for people like you who know God is there and maybe just need to be reminded or encouraged .
When I was going through all the struggles ,and the VA playing games about my pain medication .I had learned not to be upset ,somehow God will make a way and He has ,now I am finally getting the help I need .
I was not always aware myself just how much Christ had done for me ,and was still doing for me .
But when we go through it ,and look back ,then we can see how God has been working on our behalf all along .
The time He gave me with my Mom and Dad ,
He also spared my son from death not once but twice ,a birth defect that almost killed him when he was 3 weeks old and he had to have surgery (they actually went in through his belly button and cut a muscle that was to big ,or he would have starved to death ,in 3 weeks he went from a big healthy baby to looking like a baby bird ,they had to cut notch's in his skin and try to press blood out of them ,he was in such bad shape they could not even get a blood sample from him ,and we had him at the doctors every day begging them to do something ,and it took them 3 weeks to finally admit him ,and then HRS was called on me ,they tried to say I allowed my son to get like that .
Then before he was a year old we watched a friends kid for her ,she did not tell us her kid had been diagnosed with the H1N1 virus ,so my baby caught it too .
The medication was in short supply and $120.00 a vile if they could get it .
God was so good ,the pharmacy got on the ball and found us some .
They reduced the price so we could pay for it ,and people came out of the wood work offering to pay for it for us ,So God is awesome ,out son is almost 10 now and healthy as a horse .
So my story is not over ,,I have learned to stop fearing ,to trust God has a plan ,its not in my timing but His ,and He may have a totally different plan than mine .I wanted my wife back ,God gave me my kids ,and they did fill the hole no woman could ,so I am glad God does not listen to me ,He lets me know He is in charge .
He enables me to walk ,my pain is now managed ,and the blessing keep coming and I just met another Sister .
Its nice to meet you ,stay in touch .
Most of my friends call me brother Rick
you can call me whatever you want ,,except late to go home
I pray your day is a blessed one
Rick
KayraJordynF
How amazing! Thanks to God for your son's recovery, I can't even imagine. I love your statement, that "our Father loves that word impossible". With God, all things are possible! Thank you for sharing again, brother Rick. Your stories, your life, are quite encouraging indeed. God bless you, Rick.
Praise Father, Son and Holy Spirit!
Lynda70F
You god was no help to a woman I know, even though she was a christian. The Wiccan deities helped her despite that. I wrote about it here - https://similarworlds.com/4393030-I-Believe-In-Miracles/925312-A-woman-in-my-village-was-plagued-with
rckt14861-69, M
@Lynda70
Satan is the one afflicting Gods children ,is it any wonder who would do anything to make people doubt God and praise the created over the Creator ?
Do not be fooled by lying signs and wonders ,this is just the beginning of them .
and the point is only one can be our sacrifice for our sins
I suffered in pain for years and it seemed God did not hear me
As I lost my home ,my wife ,my job ,and ended up homeless ,,,
it seemed God had forsaken me (guess you never read Job)
When we trust the created over the Creator ,then you sold your salvation
Satan is the one who causes pain and suffering ,and yes God allows it .
Your friend the Christian ,,now is she praising God or a pagan deity ?
If God is not glorified ,then satan has won and maybe that soul .
In the last days one who says he is Christ will do many signs and wonders ,,and appear as he is Christ ,,except we were warned in Gods word how to know he is fake ,,,so when they masses follow him ,where do they stand with God ?
So when Christ comes and destroys everything and everyone not Gods
Then tell me the wisdom in following the temporal for the eternal ,,,
satan is real good at his job and all you do is testify to that ...
My daughter crawled to an alter 4 yrs ,a child crippled and in pain .
but her faith was rewarded ,and now she is a testimony for God ..
After so called fake prophets exposed themselves as fake when they told my Daughter "God said she would never walk again but she would preach from a wheel chair " Well now she does walk and she is not preaching from a chair so those so called men and women of God "Prophets " were exposed as using Gods name in vain ,they did not hear from God at all .
Doctors try to prove she did not have the disease she had (its very rare in kids ),,and now are astounded that she no longer shows any signs of ever having the disease ,,so I guess she should have been taken to a Wiccan ,and false prophet's
would still be telling lies and God would not have been glorified ..
And Christ is her Lord and Saviour ,and her Atonement a Wiccan can't provide atonement for sin Christ is the Atonement .
If you can't see the times of trouble are beginning ,and now is not the time to be tricked ,,then I do not know what to say
I do not have all the answers ,,I only know who has proven His love to my family and I ..and the fear of the Lord is the first signs of wisdom ,,not mocking Him and lifting up a pagan religion .
We know when the storm comes ,our house is built on solid rock
yours will be based on what you see and feel ,,
mine will be on proven faith and rewarded ,,,
and I waited years for my answers ,,I was so busy looking for something I could see ,,I did not notice He was lining other things up too
God has been busy working on my life too .
now I have far more to share than just my Daughters miracle ,I also have my own . And now God alone gets the glory ,not me ,not any man
I am not able to brag how "I" restored my broken family ,God gets all the glory for that ,I see the fruits of my faith ,I and also able to walk
But I will pray in the days to come ,you can see which road leads us home
Christ is the way ,the truth and the life
No one comes to the Father except through Him
In the end because they would not receive the love of the truth and sound doctrine ,God will give them up, and send them strong delusions and let them believe their lies (the time for sorting the wheat from the chaff )
Who really know God's children from the ones who only worship Him with their mouths but their hearts are far from Him ,(they lack any real faith )
The ones who know how to see fruit and can tell wheat from tares .
enjoy temporary blessings while you can ,
soon all hell is coming ,and unless you have the seal of the living God
you will know His wrath ,,then a little pain would not be such a price to pay
Everyone will be crying "Lord did I not do miracles in your name ,cast out demon's and the devil ,lay hands on the sick and they recovered "?
And He will say "Depart from me you lawless one ,I never knew you "
Even the Christians who brag what "They do ",will know it was not done by God
they served the father of lies ,and thought they did God a service
Remember Christ and Satan in the wilderness ,,man has given satan power too
he even tried his deception on Christ ,but how did Christ defeat him ?
"It is Written ,,with the word of God "
"Get behind me liar ,I keep all 10 of my Fathers Laws ,I know His sons true name and I will not follow a fallen angel ,now matter how many that he has afflicted he tried to look as if he has healed them ,,its just a parlor trick
Only Christ /God is worthy to be praised
I must have satan mad ,he has been working over time to try to discredit my testimony ,,I am glad to hear it ,,I'm just getting started
Lynda70F
My friend converted to Wicca. One could say she is now a testament to the the Great Mother. Your god had his chance and blew it. What makes you think the christian god healed your daughter? It could have been the Great Mother for example.
rckt14861-69, M
@Lynda70 Well lady you hang on to your mother earth ,the created
I have actually head the voice of my God ,as He made fun of me actually for not listening to a vision He gave me ,
Besides my Daughter and My own ability to walk ,He gave me a vision that saved lives ,He gave me another one to warn me someone (A Woman no less ) was going to mess up my ministry and come close to costing me my life ,,both things happened because I could not believe the vision was about this sweet caring little angel ,
Until she turned into a major cruel Witch who bragged she knew she was the woman in my vision ,,,she said all kinds of painful crap weeks before I lost my Mom ,
She was not herself ,but none the less she was the tool ,
Tell me she was sorry on moment and how much she loved me and she meant none of the stuff she was saying ,and the next laughing about it ,I know now she allowed herself to be used ,but she had no clue the damage she was going to do to someone that was always there for her .
So when I heard a (Male voice )say "Next time I tell you NO !!!
you will listen " and He is 100% right ,I wont step off the right road again .
And my last one deals with end time ,,and a gimps of what I will be facing ,,,
So it was a warning "Don't take this lightly "
SO you worship who you please ,
This post was to glorify God not mother earth ,,,
if I see a post from you praising mother earth ,I will show you respect and leave it be .
I am not here to knock who anyone believes in ,
Just share I know the God I believe in is not only real
He is a rewarder of those who endure the fire and come through praising Him for going through it ...
All I have lost in the world was worth it ,just to have the relationship I have with my Father ,,,I am not "What if " I know whats coming
and I know He will see myself and my family through it
have a good day
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