I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And Feelings

Pretty soon, at some point in May, I'll be going in to take the ASVAB test to see if I could join the Air Force. And I am super, super, really damn scared that I might fail. If I fail, I can take the test after a thirty-minute waiting period, but if I fail a second time, thirty days becomes six months. I don't think I could have the strength to wait. I am so scared I'll fail. I'm not confident, at all. Some of the stuff I'm studying just doesn't really stick. I really hope I pass...I want this so bad.

Another worry I have is, what if I can't make it at Basic? What if it's too strenuous and I end up breaking down? What if I can barely hold myself up anymore? I'm terrified...gah, I hope everything turns out all right.