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I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And Feelings

Just so randomly being random today.
I thought about some things, I did a lot of work and have incorporated a lot of the AA way into my life. AA had a profound effect on me and in my life. I learned how to appreciate me and accept me. I started to recognize my feelings and let myself be okay to feel them.
I choose what I think and how I feel and what kind of day I am going to have. I used to be so miserable, I thought I was in a pit if darkness that never ended and surely I was because that is what I thought. Afterall my reality was and is a reflection of the thoughts I have.
So if I thought I was so miserable then I acted in ways which showed myself and others how miserable I was. I didn't think I had any power over how I felt and that's just how my life was going to be.

One day, through AA, I realized that feelings were choices and I was the one choosing to be miserable and sad and in the forever darkness. That was a big day for me, because it was at that point I began to be in control and I got to decide if I wanted to remain miserable or if, dare I say it, if I wanted to be happy and know happiness. I wanted to happy and have a positive outlook on life, that is who I wanted to be. I started learning how to become that person, I changed my thinking and grew into the person I wanted to be. I quit the negative self talk, I realized that maybe I couldn't control that first thought, but that next one, that next thought was totally up to me. I could turn it around or I could take it down a dark road.

Lately I have been reading daily inspirations and i think i see some old behaviors, and i want to work the program again, which is always good to do. Take a moral inventory and see what needs to be thrown out and what is missing and what can be made better.
This has become a part of who I am and I do this regularly. Its
An important part of who I am today.

 
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