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I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And Feelings

this is all just kinda random spew, too long to get much out of.

going out to walk and take pics always gives me some time to reflect and bounce ideas around. started out thinking about fortresses and wall building and how walls and fortresses built to protect things nobody wants any have a special name - ruins... deduce from that what you will. and building walls is just a path to making yourself more like the Maryland blue crab (or the mudbugs, as far as I'm concerned. but don't tell the Cajuns I said that) - too little reward for getting what anyone might want out for the effort put in. hrm.

I got out to the pond and there wasn't much there, but I waited. anyone who's spent much time at all around dragonflies knows that they're kinda the ADD bug of the insect world. if they're stopped, it's either to rest for a (short) few minutes or they're dead. other than that they're pretty much tearing ass all the time. always in motion, usually quickly and quite erratic in pattern. I knew this in general, but I like the wording others use for it, so here's a google'd up interpretation of dragonfly symbolism-

[quote]In almost every part of the world, the Dragonfly symbolizes change, transformation, adaptability, and self-realization. The change that is often referred to has its source in mental and emotional maturity and understanding the deeper meaning of life.[/quote]

so it kinda added to my surprise when one just kept... hovering right in front of me. to the tune of 400ish image capture attempts. (my photographic skills are quite pedestrian at best; I subscribe to a school of 'spray and pray' philosophy for shooting. I'm far better suited to manning a machinegun nest than sniper's perch)
[image deleted]and more thoughts came to me. I've probably shared before, likely someone has said it far better than I ever could but maybe life is all about loss. and learning to take it, accept it, and come back. you're going to lose things. money. things. vehicles. parents. friends. people you care about a whole lot. if you're quite unfortunate, maybe even kids. but maybe the whole point of life is to take your wins, take your losses, but every time come back to the table all in. risking everything. no reservations. nothing held back. going big or going home. it sounds good. I'm not sure I could ever actually do it.... but it sounds like who I think I'd like to be. or maybe I just have these lyrics/song stuck in the back of my brain.

[i]
I have faith but don't believe you
This love ain't enough to leave you
Everything I love is on the table
Everything I love is out to sea[/i]

[youtube=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bFnA-8H-5lo]
Having some of the same thoughts myself lately.

There really isn't anyone I can't live without. It may not be the life of my preference, but I don't always get to choose.

The nature of any person's future is that it gets constantly shorter. There's more behind me than ahead of me. Would I go back if given the opportunity? No. I know what happened then. I'm far more interested in what happens next.
@Mamapolo2016 I'd very much go back. If I could change everything.
@stound Ah ... but if we knew then what we know now ... we wouldn't be ourselves.
@Mamapolo2016 I could be okay with that
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I love dragonflies, I have a dragonfly pendant that I love.
I love their colours and the way they dart around. Thank you for sharing your thoughts...

 
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