I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And Feelings

So here it goes. Lately I did something with which my mother has lost her trust in me. She is acting normally and we have the normal conversations like before but still I could feel that she is disappointed in me. I don't have the guts to bring the topic again and speak heart to heart with her. I don't know if she can forgive me but I can't watch cry alone in her room. Losing our father was tough for the whole family and now this thing.