I Hate My Life

You are so Beautiful. I don't think any man in their right mind with a heart would cheat on you...Men like beautiful women they could relate to. You have Everything any man could ever want. You seem very kindhearted and I know you are genuine. Set your fears aside. Think Positive about yourself. Consider that you are absolutely stunning, gorgeous. You need to take a little time, a little time to think things over...Don't ever give up. Don't let the sun go down on you 🌞...There is so much hope for you. If I were a guy I could never cheat on you. Keep this guy in check. If you are indeed introverted, go out more with your bf. Speak more to his friends' girlfriends. Try to fork at things you think may have in common with them, like clothing, style, present day life. Be Positive amongst them.

I must tell you that simply being alive and intact is but a struggle for me. I wake up every single morning. I don't and can't have a job, and I am unable to further my education because I'm stuck in a hostile environment with someone I have to refer to as "my Mother". She actually has her boyfriend's whole entire family raping me and tampering with my body parts in the nighttime and I never wake up feeling the same way...I am barred from having a job and an education because I'll wind up falling asleep as I've done in the past, or I'll mess up at my job and get terminated, which also happened, being that I'm constantly being drugged by these people...Living life is a difficult task for me. I am always alone. I am always fearful. I am never happy, but you know what keeps me alive? Hope. Hope. Hope is what keeps me alive. And it has gained my Respect. Even when I think negative, my heart is like the sun, it will forever shine through any dark crevice to reveal the truth lurking between it. There is hope for you. If dare you even hurt yourself, I would think twice. Remember all the times you were going to fall, what did you do? You caught your fall. You were afraid to get hurt. Just remember, death is not the answer, my Friend. If you can catch yourself from a brazen fall to prevent further harm or even death, why would you want to put an end to your precious Life? Believe it or not, your heart told you to stop yourself from falling to Prevent yourself from harm or even death. Why would you go against your Heart to let your Ego win? You do mean something. And an awful lot too!

Just REMEMBER. I care.

I Love You, just as God made humans to be loved. You are not just any human, but a precious, precious human being, with way too much meaning. Love yourself. I Love You. And I'm Human...❤️

@STARRYSTARRYNIGHT: wow thankyou. That means a hell of alot to me. I'm sorry about your circumstances.I do not think I am beautiful. I compare myself too much to others and come out insufficient every time. Your reply means alot to me. Thanks so much. Me and him do need to go out more together. I get very scared of nearly everything is why I have to keep momentum with pushing myself. or I just fall back in deep holes and find it hard to get back out again.
I was trying to understand your situation while reading it and it sounds terrible??? Please feel free to pm me and write ! ♡