I Hate My Life

I’ve honestly never seen a future for myself. I’m not saying anyone can see the future, but for me... I see nothing. I’m fresh out of highschool, and not planning to go to college till January, because of financial issues... and now I realize: I have no drive. And honestly I just want to give it all up. No, not kill myself. But give up the materialistic things I don’t need,give up caring what anyone else thinks, give up caring about others so deeply when they don’t appreciate it, give up trying to live up to expectations that I honestly don’t feel like living up to, and just go into deep into the woods, in solitude (just like Thoreau), and I feel I would be so happy, at peace... away from such materialistic things, and empty conversations, and society.. it’s all so draining. I just need simplicity, nothing else could fulfill me. I know this sounds crazy. But it’s honestly how I feel.