I Have Anxiety

Ok so i live in a little town in the middle of England and have to travel 5 days a week to university. University is good and everything but i get panic attacks every time i get on a train to go back home. I cant move nearer the university because my daughter has finally settled here but I swear its getting harder and harder not to jump out in front of a train just as a reason not to come back to this toxic place. The only reason why i dont live out that daily fantasy is because of her, unfortunately she also ends up taking most of the repercussions of the panic attacks.

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pato72 · 26-30, M

Are you married right now?

Skelepop666 · 36-40, F

Nope. No partner at all. Just a single parent doing what she can to keep a roof over her kids head, food in her stomach, books on her desk for school etc.

pato72 · 26-30, M

@Skele-pop666: Go ask your family for some help if it is possible.

Skelepop666 · 36-40, F

Its not really possible. My mother will have my daughter once a week or so in the evenings or weekends but that just gives me a chance to catch up with housework or have a few hours to breathe. My family dont know about my anxiety and i tend to keep it that way. They already dont like me, they dont need more excuses to judge me.

pato72 · 26-30, M

I guess then you have to move unless you don't have enough money.

Skelepop666 · 36-40, F

I dont have enough money to move and she has friends here (plus my family get on with her). Thats why i am doing the degree. To get a job, save up and move but i have to wait another 6 years. Then she will be 18 and can decide what she wants to do

pato72 · 26-30, M

@Skele-pop666: I am sure you can do it. Plus, I would recommend you to have a freelancer job. It's so helpful in such situations. And you have us here, I wish if I could be there and help ,but it's life :)