I Have Anxiety

Ok so i live in a little town in the middle of England and have to travel 5 days a week to university. University is good and everything but i get panic attacks every time i get on a train to go back home. I cant move nearer the university because my daughter has finally settled here but I swear its getting harder and harder not to jump out in front of a train just as a reason not to come back to this toxic place. The only reason why i dont live out that daily fantasy is because of her, unfortunately she also ends up taking most of the repercussions of the panic attacks.