I Have a Confession

I have a confession but I can't bring myself to confess it on here. Its about the spirit of Jezebel and how she controls me and how I fight for my innocents....I am so grieved by her. I am not her and she is not me but she has a strong hold on me! How did I let her in? I didn't she just decided to control me. I want to protect those around me and close myself off from the world. But that leaves me with nothing.