I Have a Confession
It's of the topic that I'm shy of. I'm writing a rather long story with some smut. I've got 7k words done so far, but it's not done yet. I am not shy of the smut, but instead... of the smut it's about. You see, it's a Fan Fiction I'm writing. I actually do enjoy reading smut on this subject, and writing it too. It's weird because, of all the things I'd even remotely intentionally look up something even slightly pr0nographic, it's this subject. Not only do I look it up, I also enjoy it. I'm very shy of this. I don't like being shy of anything. It just feels weird to be reading it... especially writing it. I don't like pr0n. It typically grosses me out. I can't stand human/human imagery. It' disgusts me. But for some reason, I like reading about it if it's between a mute girl and a sadistic AI robot, or some schizo guy and a cube. You probably know what I'm referring to if you've played the game. Yes, it's Rated MA Fan Fiction of a game. And I enjoy reading it. I don't really consider it much of a fetish just yet, because it seems too weird, even for me. And that's saying something. So those of you that know what I'm talking about... do you think that it's WTF that I more or less look up pr0n of a game... and write it?