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honest with myself, and

when I really admit it to myself...

I just want to die. Ive had that thought since I was 12.

I make it, cause Im a survivor

I shake it

briefly

but,

I dont want to survive anymore

and I havent found a way to live

and I just dont have much more left

I feel ashamed....a stupid white girl wanting to die, boo hoo. I feel like a disgrace, to God. even if, Im not even that religious

but that doesnt stop the feeling. doesnt stop my brain from screaming

it never stops

it just never stops

I grab my head and silently scream "Im sorry Im sorry"
Ask God how you should live - He is the maker and so He knows how things are supposed to be. He knows who you are and what you need - if you seek Him you will find Him!

If you have a Bible then open it and read it for [i]yourself [/i] don't worry about what others apparently have heard etc. Find out for yourself and then decide what you believe. I hope you will find Jesus...

Jesus says: " Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with me." Revelation 3:20

I believe there is a knocking on your door now...
SW-User
Life is so short anyway. I'm waiting til I have to, cuz I don't want to suffer, fuck that I've suffered enough.
Stay strong.... whoever you are.

 
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